so yeah.
OK.. so this is like the 4th time I've heard "I've decided that I'm not going to go into a relationship for the rest of my life." Now... that's a personal goal for me to achieve with every guy I start to get into.
Yeah, I tried to talk to him and I even ended up going over to his house at 1:30 in the morning even though I usually get up at 6:30am to go to work. well.. I ended up calling in to work today. I didn't feel like sitting at work and crying everyonce in a while b/c someone would notice that I wasn't myself and ask me b/c they were concerned.
So, the worst thing about it all was that I asked him if he would have decided that he was going to stay single for the rest of his life had he not met me, he said no. So I blame myself. In a way all I kinda want is someone to hold, talk to, smile with, go places with, laugh with, hug onto, walk beside, explore places with... you know.. all those good things in life. I try for nothing is what it feels like. I found someone that treated me nice and cared how I felt and I Shoved him away. Normally I sorta push (which is what's brought to my attention).. this time I shoved and pushed him to the ground, figuretively speaking.
Yeah, I tried to talk to him and I even ended up going over to his house at 1:30 in the morning even though I usually get up at 6:30am to go to work. well.. I ended up calling in to work today. I didn't feel like sitting at work and crying everyonce in a while b/c someone would notice that I wasn't myself and ask me b/c they were concerned.
So, the worst thing about it all was that I asked him if he would have decided that he was going to stay single for the rest of his life had he not met me, he said no. So I blame myself. In a way all I kinda want is someone to hold, talk to, smile with, go places with, laugh with, hug onto, walk beside, explore places with... you know.. all those good things in life. I try for nothing is what it feels like. I found someone that treated me nice and cared how I felt and I Shoved him away. Normally I sorta push (which is what's brought to my attention).. this time I shoved and pushed him to the ground, figuretively speaking.