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just when i think i am ok i relapse and want it all to end. i'm so tired of all these internal struggles that i just dont want to deal with anymore. i feel like a convenient girlfriend, i put my 2months in and now i want out. i always do. i have commitment issues obviously. it's my own fault, i don't speak up. i want to turn back time go back to a year ago. go to the times where i would go to class and see my friends, bitch about school, then go to the bar, get wasted, punch someone, throw parties, meet new people, wake up and do it all over again.
besides this i feel myself procrastinating on the things i have to do...even now. but then i make excuse after excuse. do i really want to do this still? i could change majors, schools, cities, and the list goes on. i'm sick of it, but i will keep quiet and let time pass me by.
besides this i feel myself procrastinating on the things i have to do...even now. but then i make excuse after excuse. do i really want to do this still? i could change majors, schools, cities, and the list goes on. i'm sick of it, but i will keep quiet and let time pass me by.