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Summer is abruptly coming to a close... wow.
Grandma passed away on the 6th. We didn't see it coming but it was a blessing. The last several years of her life she wasn't really living. She had alziehmers to the worst possible point. As upsetting as it was losing her, I feel at peace with it because she can now rest.. she can now be free. She was too good for this world. Its also been a blessing because I don't have to feel like I have bite my tongue with my evil aunts anymore because I have no obligation to be around them or have to feel like they have control over my inheritance. No longer can they suffocate my mother and I and I have gotten a chance through all of this to see them for who they really are - heartless, miserable monsters. And I feel bad for them, I feel nothing but pity towards them. If I never saw them again I wouldn't be the least bit upset - and I am okay with that.
I truly believe that the world is been a better place because my grandma lived. She was strong and always fought against the odds. Her heart was golden and she had the type of smile even in her last few years, that could light up a room. You felt love just radiating from her body. Rest in peace grandma eileen.. there isn't one day that passes where I don't think about you.
I was almost mugged in broad day light the other day at the sheepshead bay stop waiting for the Q train. As scary as it was, it was a pretty feeble mug attempt on the guys part. I screamed and punched him and got away fine even though he did yank on my skirt. And then despite how I upset I was.. when I got off the train and saw Jacob's face.. nothing mattered anymore.
Its senior year officially! I am so excited to be back.
And for the first time in a very very long time...
I'm happy.. I really am just happy. It's weird to think that and be able to say it.. but my God.. I finally am and I feel like I have waited more thanlong enough to feel this way.
And yes, I love him.. I still do. And we're going to be okay.. even if there is an ocean in between.
Grandma passed away on the 6th. We didn't see it coming but it was a blessing. The last several years of her life she wasn't really living. She had alziehmers to the worst possible point. As upsetting as it was losing her, I feel at peace with it because she can now rest.. she can now be free. She was too good for this world. Its also been a blessing because I don't have to feel like I have bite my tongue with my evil aunts anymore because I have no obligation to be around them or have to feel like they have control over my inheritance. No longer can they suffocate my mother and I and I have gotten a chance through all of this to see them for who they really are - heartless, miserable monsters. And I feel bad for them, I feel nothing but pity towards them. If I never saw them again I wouldn't be the least bit upset - and I am okay with that.
I truly believe that the world is been a better place because my grandma lived. She was strong and always fought against the odds. Her heart was golden and she had the type of smile even in her last few years, that could light up a room. You felt love just radiating from her body. Rest in peace grandma eileen.. there isn't one day that passes where I don't think about you.
I was almost mugged in broad day light the other day at the sheepshead bay stop waiting for the Q train. As scary as it was, it was a pretty feeble mug attempt on the guys part. I screamed and punched him and got away fine even though he did yank on my skirt. And then despite how I upset I was.. when I got off the train and saw Jacob's face.. nothing mattered anymore.
Its senior year officially! I am so excited to be back.
And for the first time in a very very long time...
I'm happy.. I really am just happy. It's weird to think that and be able to say it.. but my God.. I finally am and I feel like I have waited more thanlong enough to feel this way.
And yes, I love him.. I still do. And we're going to be okay.. even if there is an ocean in between.