how much more can a person take??
i cant even begin to describe the pain i feel right now.. its just that im hurtin soo bad. i put everything i have into a relationship and try to be the best girlfriend a guy could have but in the end i ALWAYS get screwed. ya know breakin up is already hard to do but its worse when you find out someones cheating on you. it just makes the pain like 2670364085 times worse. and my mom isnt helping any all she does is want to talk about it and sometimes i jsut dont want to fucking talk about it. i just want to be left alone and be mad or cry. i dont think she understands that.. i know it isnt good but sometimes i jsut want to cry and thats it just have my self a really good cry and maybe then ill feel better... i dont think working tomorrow is gonna be any help cuz its gonna be soo sloooow and all ill do is just sit there and think about the whole situation. im seriously done with dating im done with it. i dont even have the urge to date anymore.. it all ends the same me crying over soem stupid bastard and im done i dont want to do it anymore.. i think i need to go to church or something.. or go to the confessional i dont know.. i just need to do something...i just cant wait till the river next weekend maybe that will help... but ill probally end up drunk and crying and drunk dialing him.