most of whats on my compLicated mind.
do you ever just get so fed up with everything that you just wanna give up on life?yea.thats the mood im in right now.'fuck everything' im only human i make ALOT of mistakes but this cant go on any longer its not fair to other ppl.yea no one prolly has any clue what im talking about but thats okay, i like it better that way.i like to keep things to myselfff lately as much as possible :-/ whatever moving onn i have a lotta shit on my mind and i just feel like telling someone but i really have no one to tell right now. first things first i hate money.i wish there was no such thing as money.money is a like water.i HATE money.but i liek water.it means too much in this fucked up world.in the end it all comes down to money.yea i got bitched at again about my cellphone bill.this time i only owe 150 not 200.i dont care im working for nothing what else am i gonna spend it on? clothes or beer? i blow money.shoot me.i dont even know how to put money in my fucking bank account.my dads such an ass if you complain about god damned money so much then why am i living in this fucking house? why do i have a 'car'.sell the god damned piece of shit i dont want it.why am i fucking going to college if all i hear about is how expensive it is.god why dont you just sell me for gods sake maybe you could make a whole penny.next thing; alcohol only ruins relationships and lives.enough about that ive thought about it too much all day.thX dano for talking sum sense into me.next..DONT LIE TO ME .all i want is the truth i dont care if it kills me thats all i want from people.thats a lot to ask though when you've been lied to all your life.when i come to talk to you that must mean that i CARE and that something is really bothering me.im starting to think that a lot of people make fake things up just to try and piss me off and try n make me jealous and unfortunately i fall for it every god damned fucking time cause im weak.i fall for peoples shit all the time and i want to change that but itll never happen.i coudlnt tell you one thing i like about myself.so thank you everyone who in the past month has brought my self esteem to a negative number.and the funny thing is people think im kidding.im not.i want to be able to talk to my rents about shit but that will NEVER happen either.crying is the only way i know how to let my frustrations out other than yelling and i dont like yelling god knows ive yelled enough this weekend and been yelled at enough.if i say i dont want to talk to you guess what that means..? i dont want to talk to you so stop trying plz thx.i really cant wait to go to college now.i think itll be a good change.its sad though how all the relationships youve spent so long working on and mending will most likely fall apart and youll lose touch.life doesnt really make sense.maybe someday ill understand if everything happens for a reason.i guess im done for now.can i geta AMEn.
sometimes you just have to
Let go
and LEt the tEArs
fLoW*
push it out.FAKE a smiLE.
sometimes you just have to
Let go
and LEt the tEArs
fLoW*
push it out.FAKE a smiLE.