I was doing some thinking last night, and it made me wonder. Do you have friends that sometimes you think look down on you for the choices you make in your life
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Ok, lets put it in kindergarden terms for you. Lately you have seemed so stuck up, or pretetious (if you prefer) about the way you eat, and the way you conduct yourself. Like I'm not good enough to call, and/or hang out with, because I do not share your same lifestyle. You have ridiculed the food that I choose to eat, and at the same time look at me like I'm a cow. And you may not even know you are doing it, but you are ,and it fucking hurts like hell. Anytime I suggested getting coffee, or something of that nature, you made it seem like you were the only one that did anything all day, with scornful undertones. Just because I'm not working right now does not make me lazy. You were hurt when I said I was moving back to California, asap, and made it seem like you would have nobody to hang out with. Well, I'm still here, wishing I had someone to hang out with... Where are you? You made it seem as if I was going to be abandoning you. Where are you? Another thing that has been bothering me. I'm afraid to talk to you because you will just make fun of what I'm saying, if writing, how I spell some words, or my grammar. I've seen you look down, and deride people for not speaking with the same eloquence. I've seen it right in front of me. You speak of them as though they have no education, or pedigree what-so-ever compared to you. I don't want to be the the butt of your next joke. It's like you are better then them for knowing how to speak well, and use "big words". When sometimes I just wonder if they just cannot understand what you are saying because everyother word you use is over "thesaurusized" (it's my own word for it because I cannot think of one, go ahead, make fun of me if you want).
Example: "I feel like I'm being chastened for something I didn't even precipitate and I'm being reprimanded and upbraided for a choice I make. I feel like I'm being purposefully derided for a nonexistent slight that someone confabulated based on my lifestyle."
It's stuff like that. I know that is how you speak, but not everyone in the free world knows all those words, and their meaning. I had to go to dictionary.com to see what most of them ment. Call me stupid if you want, but that's me. The other half of the reason I believe you look down on me sometimes.
So next time you get irritated when someone is asking you "stupid questions" (e.g. your ex asking about loans), sit back, and think if you are making yourself fully understandable. Because sometimes, I have no clue what the hell you are saying, and I cannot get to a dictionary fast enough. I don't want to have to ask you to use a synonym for whatever word you used, because I know again you will make fun of me for it.
Maybe you don't know you are doing these things, but I hope this helps you see that you do, and why I am so upset.
Lately you have seemed so stuck up, or pretetious (if you prefer) about the way you eat, and the way you conduct yourself. Like I'm not good enough to call, and/or hang out with, because I do not share your same lifestyle. You have ridiculed the food that I choose to eat, and at the same time look at me like I'm a cow. And you may not even know you are doing it, but you are ,and it fucking hurts like hell. Anytime I suggested getting coffee, or something of that nature, you made it seem like you were the only one that did anything all day, with scornful undertones. Just because I'm not working right now does not make me lazy.
You were hurt when I said I was moving back to California, asap, and made it seem like you would have nobody to hang out with. Well, I'm still here, wishing I had someone to hang out with... Where are you? You made it seem as if I was going to be abandoning you. Where are you?
Another thing that has been bothering me. I'm afraid to talk to you because you will just make fun of what I'm saying, if writing, how I spell some words, or my grammar. I've seen you look down, and deride people for not speaking with the same eloquence. I've seen it right in front of me. You speak of them as though they have no education, or pedigree what-so-ever compared to you. I don't want to be the the butt of your next joke. It's like you are better then them for knowing how to speak well, and use "big words". When sometimes I just wonder if they just cannot understand what you are saying because everyother word you use is over "thesaurusized" (it's my own word for it because I cannot think of one, go ahead, make fun of me if you want).
Example: "I feel like I'm being chastened for something I didn't even precipitate and I'm being reprimanded and upbraided for a choice I make. I feel like I'm being purposefully derided for a nonexistent slight that someone confabulated based on my lifestyle."
It's stuff like that. I know that is how you speak, but not everyone in the free world knows all those words, and their meaning. I had to go to dictionary.com to see what most of them ment. Call me stupid if you want, but that's me. The other half of the reason I believe you look down on me sometimes.
So next time you get irritated when someone is asking you "stupid questions" (e.g. your ex asking about loans), sit back, and think if you are making yourself fully understandable. Because sometimes, I have no clue what the hell you are saying, and I cannot get to a dictionary fast enough. I don't want to have to ask you to use a synonym for whatever word you used, because I know again you will make fun of me for it.
Maybe you don't know you are doing these things, but I hope this helps you see that you do, and why I am so upset.
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