thinkinnnng
so lately i dont know whats been wrong with me. My head has been hurting everyday, i think i caught something from christopher!
So the whole friend status with that certain someone...I really hope things are back to normal. I like to think they are...i like to pretend they are. But for some reason I dont think it will ever be the same. I got to see some true colors and It was pretty scarey....Scarey to know that someone you thought cared to deeply for you would shit on u in a second. Just makes you think. Anyhow, My 18th was fabuloso. I went out with a few friends. It was really chill exactly what i wanted. My mom and sister are taking me out this weekend, Hopefully friday. I miss my Mom. She comes home tomorrow. I am ubeeeerly excited. I think i really do consider her a friend as gay as it sounds. I dont think i have ever missed anyone like I missed her...haha. Maybe thats the reason i Opted for Thomas Nelson. I got a larrrge scholorship to Valley Forge Christian College. I really should be going there next fall. But i strongly believe I need to stay home. I dont think i could be in Pennsylvania for months at a time without being able to come home on the weekends. Maybe Ill want to go there after my one year of thomas nelson. Maybe Ill end up going to ODU. Ugggh this is all so stressful. Im just relieved I have extra time to do it all. In some ways I dont want to leave home...but i want to have the college experience....ahhh i just hate the fact that my closest friends are leaving me here.....I guess I could leave as well, but its just the point. Its pretty scarey that in a year from NOW i wont talk to more then half the people i hang out with every day now... I HATE that feeling.....
So the whole friend status with that certain someone...I really hope things are back to normal. I like to think they are...i like to pretend they are. But for some reason I dont think it will ever be the same. I got to see some true colors and It was pretty scarey....Scarey to know that someone you thought cared to deeply for you would shit on u in a second. Just makes you think. Anyhow, My 18th was fabuloso. I went out with a few friends. It was really chill exactly what i wanted. My mom and sister are taking me out this weekend, Hopefully friday. I miss my Mom. She comes home tomorrow. I am ubeeeerly excited. I think i really do consider her a friend as gay as it sounds. I dont think i have ever missed anyone like I missed her...haha. Maybe thats the reason i Opted for Thomas Nelson. I got a larrrge scholorship to Valley Forge Christian College. I really should be going there next fall. But i strongly believe I need to stay home. I dont think i could be in Pennsylvania for months at a time without being able to come home on the weekends. Maybe Ill want to go there after my one year of thomas nelson. Maybe Ill end up going to ODU. Ugggh this is all so stressful. Im just relieved I have extra time to do it all. In some ways I dont want to leave home...but i want to have the college experience....ahhh i just hate the fact that my closest friends are leaving me here.....I guess I could leave as well, but its just the point. Its pretty scarey that in a year from NOW i wont talk to more then half the people i hang out with every day now... I HATE that feeling.....