It's been 7 years...
Wow, been a long time. Life, right?
So much has changed since I updated my profile. Ashton and I never got married, my 2 cats ran away on separate occasions, and the dog eventually passed away this past year. Let's see, where am I now?
I'm living on the west coast of Florida and I really enjoy the small town I've come to call home for the past 6+ years. I have loads of friends, a beautiful man on my side named Thomas, and still working in the service industry. The latter may change as I am close to pursuing my goal of learning all about herbalism via online courses.
Recently, I have felt like I'm drowning and clinging to what little life raft I have left. Survival mode has been fully engaged (once again) for 6 months - a year. Granddad passed, Aunt Kelly passed, my friend hung herself, high school friend over dosed, people have been getting married, and in between those events, I have been working my tail off day and night. I am tired. I had no idea what to do and so I went to see Stephan (my therapist). He was able to take my whirlwind storm of a mind and help set a path toward small goals while also helping me see what repairs I had done to my pathetic excuse for a life raft. Seems all the hard work and soul searching has paid off in some regard after all.
Anyway, even though I find myself exhausted and like a shell of a human being, I have a glimmer of hope to look forward to. I am quitting one job and keeping the gig at southern fresh while I focus on my courses. Then, who knows? I have lots of ideas and plans. For now though, I will put one foot in front of the other and keep on keepin' on. Lots still needs to change and I need to adapt to find my success, happiness, and ultiamtely...my peace.
xoxo,
Kaila
So much has changed since I updated my profile. Ashton and I never got married, my 2 cats ran away on separate occasions, and the dog eventually passed away this past year. Let's see, where am I now?
I'm living on the west coast of Florida and I really enjoy the small town I've come to call home for the past 6+ years. I have loads of friends, a beautiful man on my side named Thomas, and still working in the service industry. The latter may change as I am close to pursuing my goal of learning all about herbalism via online courses.
Recently, I have felt like I'm drowning and clinging to what little life raft I have left. Survival mode has been fully engaged (once again) for 6 months - a year. Granddad passed, Aunt Kelly passed, my friend hung herself, high school friend over dosed, people have been getting married, and in between those events, I have been working my tail off day and night. I am tired. I had no idea what to do and so I went to see Stephan (my therapist). He was able to take my whirlwind storm of a mind and help set a path toward small goals while also helping me see what repairs I had done to my pathetic excuse for a life raft. Seems all the hard work and soul searching has paid off in some regard after all.
Anyway, even though I find myself exhausted and like a shell of a human being, I have a glimmer of hope to look forward to. I am quitting one job and keeping the gig at southern fresh while I focus on my courses. Then, who knows? I have lots of ideas and plans. For now though, I will put one foot in front of the other and keep on keepin' on. Lots still needs to change and I need to adapt to find my success, happiness, and ultiamtely...my peace.
xoxo,
Kaila