It's been a while...
So I haven't posted for at least two months. That's partly because I forgot my password and didn't feel like dealing with the capcha or whatever anddd partly because I've just been too damn lazy. Now that I've gotten that out of the way, let me just mention that since I turn an isolating fan on, my kitty has started attacking some grocery bags that are blowing in the wind. ON TO TEH POST!
I have really enjoyed my freedom these past however many months regardless of stress factors and bills (which suck so muchhhh lol). I have been thankful for every morning I am able to wake up to my significant other sleeping soundly next to me. I loved watching my newborn kitten develop into her "teenage" kitty days and I have enjoyed every moment I get to spend with her regardless of her rough playfulness.
There is one thing I have not really been thoughtful of though and that is my Creator, my Father, my God. I have ignored him and his attempts to reach me. Speaking of which, I received a letter from myself that was written a year ago [My church had us write a letter to our selves, seal it in an envelope and let them keep it for a year, as they would mail it in a year's time]. I would write down, word for word but it is in my car and I don't feel like getting up to get it. (; But at any rate, I shall give you a pretty good synapse of what was said. I told my "future" self to follow my heart and I asked myself if I were to end up with (my then bf) Joel or previous/potential suitors. I then proceeded to tell myself to never loose sight of Who made me, Who loves me; God. I also told myself to love myself and that I am a beautiful human being, created in a Godly image.
After letting Corey read the letter first and after I read it myself, Corey told me that I should get reunited with my fellowship and with my beliefs. He was serious, not sarcastic and that made it all the more sweet and encouraging. I definitely should start receiving God's messages through whatever means; going to church, going to the college "youth" group, and/or just opening up my spirit to any guidance He may have for me. Because He knows I sure need it. It would also help me feel more at ease with everything, more at peace with my life, knowing everything will be taken care of despite whether or not Corey and other non believers feel it to be true and correct.
Moving on to music.
I have learned a new song on my uke!! "Naked As We Came" by Iron and Wine. It is lovely and a joy/ease to play! I want to learn more and I plan on doing so, after I freshen/sharpen up my already learned song "library" so to speak lol. Also, FTD will be no longer. Well if they continue as a band, Saxon (having a baby with Rachael [BOO!]) will no longer be a part of it. Which is sad but who knows, maybe getting a new guitarist will make em hit the big time! haha I should stop using so many corny lines...
Now for work.
I am still working with Heather Harper and I enjoy it very much. It can be stressing at times and some of the ladies there can DEFF get on my nerves. But hey, you can't be happy all the time! I also hope to (in the future) go to classes or get certified for something dealing with the mortgage business so I may be able to help out a little more. Because right now, there is with out a doubt, a wall at times, [[[[ my kitty just came over to me, meowed and crawled onto my chest for some lovin'. SO FUCKING CUTE, I LOVE HER ]]]] concerning my knowledge of the business, that prevents me from helping out a little bit more and being able to go that "extra mile". We'll see how everything works out. For now, I will continue to deal with Andrea and all the loan officer's bullshit LOL.
&One more thing. I love Corey Joseph Cruz more and more with each day passing. I could elaborate but I'm sure I'd be saying things I've already said before in real life and in posts. <3
Ahhh, it feels so much better to be writing these things down, getting them out of my head. I can't handle all this stuff just hovering over me like a cloud and me ignoring it.
I have really enjoyed my freedom these past however many months regardless of stress factors and bills (which suck so muchhhh lol). I have been thankful for every morning I am able to wake up to my significant other sleeping soundly next to me. I loved watching my newborn kitten develop into her "teenage" kitty days and I have enjoyed every moment I get to spend with her regardless of her rough playfulness.
There is one thing I have not really been thoughtful of though and that is my Creator, my Father, my God. I have ignored him and his attempts to reach me. Speaking of which, I received a letter from myself that was written a year ago [My church had us write a letter to our selves, seal it in an envelope and let them keep it for a year, as they would mail it in a year's time]. I would write down, word for word but it is in my car and I don't feel like getting up to get it. (; But at any rate, I shall give you a pretty good synapse of what was said. I told my "future" self to follow my heart and I asked myself if I were to end up with (my then bf) Joel or previous/potential suitors. I then proceeded to tell myself to never loose sight of Who made me, Who loves me; God. I also told myself to love myself and that I am a beautiful human being, created in a Godly image.
After letting Corey read the letter first and after I read it myself, Corey told me that I should get reunited with my fellowship and with my beliefs. He was serious, not sarcastic and that made it all the more sweet and encouraging. I definitely should start receiving God's messages through whatever means; going to church, going to the college "youth" group, and/or just opening up my spirit to any guidance He may have for me. Because He knows I sure need it. It would also help me feel more at ease with everything, more at peace with my life, knowing everything will be taken care of despite whether or not Corey and other non believers feel it to be true and correct.
Moving on to music.
I have learned a new song on my uke!! "Naked As We Came" by Iron and Wine. It is lovely and a joy/ease to play! I want to learn more and I plan on doing so, after I freshen/sharpen up my already learned song "library" so to speak lol. Also, FTD will be no longer. Well if they continue as a band, Saxon (having a baby with Rachael [BOO!]) will no longer be a part of it. Which is sad but who knows, maybe getting a new guitarist will make em hit the big time! haha I should stop using so many corny lines...
Now for work.
I am still working with Heather Harper and I enjoy it very much. It can be stressing at times and some of the ladies there can DEFF get on my nerves. But hey, you can't be happy all the time! I also hope to (in the future) go to classes or get certified for something dealing with the mortgage business so I may be able to help out a little more. Because right now, there is with out a doubt, a wall at times, [[[[ my kitty just came over to me, meowed and crawled onto my chest for some lovin'. SO FUCKING CUTE, I LOVE HER ]]]] concerning my knowledge of the business, that prevents me from helping out a little bit more and being able to go that "extra mile". We'll see how everything works out. For now, I will continue to deal with Andrea and all the loan officer's bullshit LOL.
&One more thing. I love Corey Joseph Cruz more and more with each day passing. I could elaborate but I'm sure I'd be saying things I've already said before in real life and in posts. <3
Ahhh, it feels so much better to be writing these things down, getting them out of my head. I can't handle all this stuff just hovering over me like a cloud and me ignoring it.