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So it started out as one of my not-so-great days. I threw up twice this morning. Once at home and once at valencia, so that's not always good. I came home and had some pepto bismol and that helped. Nothing happened and swim practice was short today due to rain. When I got home I saw that Mic was back so I talked to him for a while. Boy, things sure do seem strange talking to him. I've never liked talking to him online anyway. I mean, he never acts like he's interested and I really have learned to not expect that of him anymore so I just told him I'd talk to him later. I kept my promise because I had to ask him a HUGE favor for me (which I do hope he can follow through on). It got me to thinking about how much I miss him. I don't really miss him in the sexual, boyfriend kind of way. I miss him in the friend way. I want to be able to call him up and just be able to hang out with him. I don't know what happened (well, I do, but no one besides me and him need to know this). I just want that awesome friendship back. He's such a fun guy and he's so deep that I know I can talk to him about anything. I know he doesn't judge me and he just listens. He's like the girl friend I never really had, except a guy. I want him to be comfortable enough to be around me. I don't want him to feel like if we hang out that something will happen between us. I just want my friend back and forget everything that happened between us. I know we can never forget what went on while we were together, but I'd like to not make it so negative and turn it into a positive. Maybe one day we can be friends who are able to just hang out and confide in each other, but for now all I can do is hope and wish and pray. I miss him and I miss smiling constantly because he's absolutely the funniest person I know.