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I don't want to go out and get drunk AND shag around.
I don't want the opportunities being single affords me, I don't want to be able to spend money on myself and to be selfish
I don't want to have a whole bed to myself
to go to bed without saying I love you to him
To kiss anyone else
I want to cook dinner together again, to watch Jonathan Creek in bed, to kiss someone I love, to sleep wrapped in someone I love, to spend whole days in bed, to cuddle and be relaxed. I don't want to have all the exciting bits again, when your up all night thinking of them, when you can't keep your hands off each other and its all tingly. I just want my boyfriend and my best friend back, to kiss the one person who makes me okay to be just be me back.
I've been angry, I've been ignoring him when he says he wants to be friends, I've started looking for a new job and thinking about moving out and all the brilliant things my future could hold and yet I don't want them. I just want him.
I don't want the opportunities being single affords me, I don't want to be able to spend money on myself and to be selfish
I don't want to have a whole bed to myself
to go to bed without saying I love you to him
To kiss anyone else
I want to cook dinner together again, to watch Jonathan Creek in bed, to kiss someone I love, to sleep wrapped in someone I love, to spend whole days in bed, to cuddle and be relaxed. I don't want to have all the exciting bits again, when your up all night thinking of them, when you can't keep your hands off each other and its all tingly. I just want my boyfriend and my best friend back, to kiss the one person who makes me okay to be just be me back.
I've been angry, I've been ignoring him when he says he wants to be friends, I've started looking for a new job and thinking about moving out and all the brilliant things my future could hold and yet I don't want them. I just want him.