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I am ... so terrified.
Here's the deal. It was decided that I was going to go to UW. Family decision. It's here, it's cheap, it's one of the best schools in the country, especially for undergrad.
I always wanted to go to UT. It'd always been my dream. But, I figured, undergrad at UW, grad at UT. Everyone wins.
Now it looks like I may just be going to UT next year.
And I'm terrified.
I'm not terrified about leaving my family or living on my own or anything like that... I'm terrified that I may be making the wrong decision. The amount of debt that I'm going to be in simply by living on campus is immense. My parents can't pay any of it, I can't pay any of it - it's all loans, all of it. At UW, I escape a lot of that. Plus, I've been told UT isn't a very good undergrad school, and that students at UT who got their undergrad at UW earn a lot of respect.
UT isn't my educated choice, it's my dream. And I'm afraid that by following my dream I'd be making a decision that I'm inevitably going to regret.
When I consider one factor: what do I want to do? The answer is easy, I want to go to UT. That's what I want to do. But when everything else is thrown in... The people I'll be leaving behind (and my dog :(), the debt I'll incur, the potential lower quality of education, the hassle of moving... Is it worth it?
Somebody please tell me: is it worth it?
~roxy