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Ok so now that I have my own private (some what) office I can actually come and write. Except I am management so I am constantly being interuppted and afraid someone will see this! Also I feel REALLY bad wasting my bosses time & money coming on here....:-(...it's SO addictive and time consuming! For me anyway.
I'm restricting again and I hope to get out and start running again soon too! I was thinking the other day about how when things in my life seem somewhat manageble I don't seem to be consumed as much by my ED, but if I am at all stressed or pissed or whatever, look out I am back at it with a vengence because I feel in control and more calm in my own world. It's the only way I know how to handle it all, I like to avoid feeling or dealing with anything so I can cope better when I let it consume me! Unfortunetaly that is most of the time, even when things are managable I never stop thinking about it. I don't know if any of this makes sense but that's how I feel.
Ok got to go...I get to leave at 3pm today...yay!!
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she inspires me!
I'm restricting again and I hope to get out and start running again soon too! I was thinking the other day about how when things in my life seem somewhat manageble I don't seem to be consumed as much by my ED, but if I am at all stressed or pissed or whatever, look out I am back at it with a vengence because I feel in control and more calm in my own world. It's the only way I know how to handle it all, I like to avoid feeling or dealing with anything so I can cope better when I let it consume me! Unfortunetaly that is most of the time, even when things are managable I never stop thinking about it. I don't know if any of this makes sense but that's how I feel.
Ok got to go...I get to leave at 3pm today...yay!!
x-posted
she inspires me!