(no subject)
things I hate about our friendship...because I am psycotic
-because of our being girl/guy we can't actually go on trips or do fun stuff like that together because of the obvious...
-that sometimes I feel like you don't care enough...with the disease and taking it so lightly??! I could go into a whole wack of reasons for you and against you here...;oP
-that I sometimes get jealous of other people when you spend time with them...I wish it was me and I feel like you are MY friend only...I know how stupid that sounds but that's the way my mind works.
-when you don't call for a while I feel like you don't care anymore and there are way more important things in your life than stupid old ME!
-I hate that I am so attached to you and need you in my life to feel complete. I hate that I 'need' your friendship so badly, I don't want to be this needy!!
-I don't want to depend on anyone and I often feel like I should distance myself from you and our friendship so that I don't feel that way.
-I hate that you could leave me at anytime and there is nothing I could do about it.
-sometimes I hate that I have let you in, I hate that I have let my guard down and let you get too close.
-I hate that I do this to you and you don't even know it! I hate that I feel the way I do but I can't help it!
-I hate that you care about me so much because it makes me feel so safe and secure in our friendship and that contradicts everything I feel! It goes against the rules I have made for myself and I feel like one day it will all blow up in my face...I don't deserve this, nothing is this good for this long, why me? don't trust it!
-I hate that you are so good to me, when I am not so good to you!
-because of our being girl/guy we can't actually go on trips or do fun stuff like that together because of the obvious...
-that sometimes I feel like you don't care enough...with the disease and taking it so lightly??! I could go into a whole wack of reasons for you and against you here...;oP
-that I sometimes get jealous of other people when you spend time with them...I wish it was me and I feel like you are MY friend only...I know how stupid that sounds but that's the way my mind works.
-when you don't call for a while I feel like you don't care anymore and there are way more important things in your life than stupid old ME!
-I hate that I am so attached to you and need you in my life to feel complete. I hate that I 'need' your friendship so badly, I don't want to be this needy!!
-I don't want to depend on anyone and I often feel like I should distance myself from you and our friendship so that I don't feel that way.
-I hate that you could leave me at anytime and there is nothing I could do about it.
-sometimes I hate that I have let you in, I hate that I have let my guard down and let you get too close.
-I hate that I do this to you and you don't even know it! I hate that I feel the way I do but I can't help it!
-I hate that you care about me so much because it makes me feel so safe and secure in our friendship and that contradicts everything I feel! It goes against the rules I have made for myself and I feel like one day it will all blow up in my face...I don't deserve this, nothing is this good for this long, why me? don't trust it!
-I hate that you are so good to me, when I am not so good to you!