fun weekend
Went white water rafting on the weekend,it was fun! Yesterday I was EXHAUSTED, friday night we were up until 4am and up at 7:30am to raft and saturday we were up until 2am and up at 7:30am to raft and then we didn't get home until 2am on sunday night! One of the girls we took was new to our group and she wasn't feeling good on Sunday so I had to stay back with her (being the great leader that I am! heh) because we could leave her all alone. IT SUCKED TO BE ME!!! I missed that whole day of rafting, I just sat at the resort and sun tanned & read while she slept. Oh well I got over it!
Good thing...I ate pretty much nothing all weekend...yay me! I can't eat around people so it's so much easier to refrain from food in a crowd! I really need to work harder at getting where I want to be though, when I am home I get lazy. I need to get focused and work hard and concentrate on the task at hand. It's so hard when your life is no longer your own...my children are my focus, it's hard to concentrate on me because they are my priority now! which is a good thing, don't get me wrong I would probably be dead by now if it weren't for them!!
I have this crazy fetish with feeling the protruding bones on my body, it is seriously an obsession of mine...weird I know! I was feeling my shoulder blade and the bone on the top of my shoulder, and I can't tell you how good it felt that they are slowly becoming more prominent!
I have to work late today...:( I'm training right now so my hours are all screwed!
Had some really good talks with my best bud this weekend too, on our 7 hour drive to the rafting place! Nothing threatening, although he has mentioned to me we need to 'talk' about your 'eating issues' but I am avoiding that like the plague! You know those stupid feelings of I want someone to care enough to talk to me but on the other hand I don't?!?! Sweet ambivalence.
I'm off to be with my babe...she needs her momma! It's sometimes nice to be needed!!
Good thing...I ate pretty much nothing all weekend...yay me! I can't eat around people so it's so much easier to refrain from food in a crowd! I really need to work harder at getting where I want to be though, when I am home I get lazy. I need to get focused and work hard and concentrate on the task at hand. It's so hard when your life is no longer your own...my children are my focus, it's hard to concentrate on me because they are my priority now! which is a good thing, don't get me wrong I would probably be dead by now if it weren't for them!!
I have this crazy fetish with feeling the protruding bones on my body, it is seriously an obsession of mine...weird I know! I was feeling my shoulder blade and the bone on the top of my shoulder, and I can't tell you how good it felt that they are slowly becoming more prominent!
I have to work late today...:( I'm training right now so my hours are all screwed!
Had some really good talks with my best bud this weekend too, on our 7 hour drive to the rafting place! Nothing threatening, although he has mentioned to me we need to 'talk' about your 'eating issues' but I am avoiding that like the plague! You know those stupid feelings of I want someone to care enough to talk to me but on the other hand I don't?!?! Sweet ambivalence.
I'm off to be with my babe...she needs her momma! It's sometimes nice to be needed!!