you had me at hello
i'm still confused as to what i want. i'm going to watch nfl with aric tonight and i like him a lot ... and probably more than i ever did at first impression, but i still don't feel it; i couldn't see myself with him for a long time so i feel like even though i'm just having a good time now, i'm still settling. i don't know.
thanksgiving was good - small and no leftovers for me :( i am CRAVING some of that food right now. my grandparents had their friends over and it was annoying, but it was still a good time.
went to omaha to watch will, graham and piper friday morning .... got there on thursday night and hung out with the dudes for awhile. will wouldn't stop asking me to watch yellow submarine with him ... his favorite band is the beatles and he knows that whole album! that amazes me ... i am so teaching my kids quality music so they don't end up asking for now 17 for christmas....well by the time i have kids it will be now 30.
friday, i went shopping with sara and got two sweet band shirts from hot topic. Rush and AC/DC. they kick ass and they are soooo comfortable. i will probably wear them every other day.
then we went over to eric's and started drink-a-linkin before we went to the ranch bowl for the show. the show was pretty good. i had three crown and 7's and got really tipsy, freaking freezing my ass off in the rain and trying to avoid the "nice" older guy talking to me at the bar.
i passed out at eric's and barely slept all night but he was really sweet and made hashbrowns and coffee and then we watched eternal sunshine; which by the way makes me want to cry because i love it. i didn't of course, but i just can't describe the power of that movie that gets me. maybe it's not that great of a movie in a lot of eyes, but damn...it's gorgeous.
hopefully i can make it back to omaha in the next two weeks before i get paid again.
so i went to get refitted for my bridesmaid dress for car's wedding. hopefully i won't be falling out of it. ;)
went to watch 'shelter island' and a couple episodes of CSI with matt and jamie and caught up with them like we have to do every weekend because i never see jamie anymore!
i almost fell asleep, but decided to go to steve's, clint's and james' with megan (jamies sister) at 3...kyle, monty, jeremy and ellie were there. steve was passed out on the floor vulnerable and ready to be bitchslapped by megan. long story.
i almost still uncomfortable when i go there ... like i have to bring my level of thinking down to their level and that's not healthy. they're entertaining though. i don't know what my deal is seriously - deep down i'm still wondering what they think of me so i don't really know how to be myself there. which frustrates me because when kyle is there, that's all i want to do is be myself because i usually am just with him. just rarely. he's just...so...
anyways it's snowing like a motherfucker outside and jake came down to talk to me today so that made it much better :) i want to ask him to hang out but i think i have to wait until i get a new job because i am not getting into another work relationship. period.
not that it would be that, but if it lead to more...it would just mess things up. I want to jump him. that's all there is to it. and of course he has to be nice with a cute smile and has a few tattoos and that's my weakness right now, whether they truly are or not: bad boys.
whatcha gonna do?
thanksgiving was good - small and no leftovers for me :( i am CRAVING some of that food right now. my grandparents had their friends over and it was annoying, but it was still a good time.
went to omaha to watch will, graham and piper friday morning .... got there on thursday night and hung out with the dudes for awhile. will wouldn't stop asking me to watch yellow submarine with him ... his favorite band is the beatles and he knows that whole album! that amazes me ... i am so teaching my kids quality music so they don't end up asking for now 17 for christmas....well by the time i have kids it will be now 30.
friday, i went shopping with sara and got two sweet band shirts from hot topic. Rush and AC/DC. they kick ass and they are soooo comfortable. i will probably wear them every other day.
then we went over to eric's and started drink-a-linkin before we went to the ranch bowl for the show. the show was pretty good. i had three crown and 7's and got really tipsy, freaking freezing my ass off in the rain and trying to avoid the "nice" older guy talking to me at the bar.
i passed out at eric's and barely slept all night but he was really sweet and made hashbrowns and coffee and then we watched eternal sunshine; which by the way makes me want to cry because i love it. i didn't of course, but i just can't describe the power of that movie that gets me. maybe it's not that great of a movie in a lot of eyes, but damn...it's gorgeous.
hopefully i can make it back to omaha in the next two weeks before i get paid again.
so i went to get refitted for my bridesmaid dress for car's wedding. hopefully i won't be falling out of it. ;)
went to watch 'shelter island' and a couple episodes of CSI with matt and jamie and caught up with them like we have to do every weekend because i never see jamie anymore!
i almost fell asleep, but decided to go to steve's, clint's and james' with megan (jamies sister) at 3...kyle, monty, jeremy and ellie were there. steve was passed out on the floor vulnerable and ready to be bitchslapped by megan. long story.
i almost still uncomfortable when i go there ... like i have to bring my level of thinking down to their level and that's not healthy. they're entertaining though. i don't know what my deal is seriously - deep down i'm still wondering what they think of me so i don't really know how to be myself there. which frustrates me because when kyle is there, that's all i want to do is be myself because i usually am just with him. just rarely. he's just...so...
anyways it's snowing like a motherfucker outside and jake came down to talk to me today so that made it much better :) i want to ask him to hang out but i think i have to wait until i get a new job because i am not getting into another work relationship. period.
not that it would be that, but if it lead to more...it would just mess things up. I want to jump him. that's all there is to it. and of course he has to be nice with a cute smile and has a few tattoos and that's my weakness right now, whether they truly are or not: bad boys.
whatcha gonna do?