It's silly-but I feel great today!

[roxxxy_jive]

So I've been keen on a boy for a few months now, but it's been going no where, because of his work and being sick and being out of town and yada yada . . .  so every time I start to give up on hearing from him he contacts me again, we hangout/make out and things continue. Well, despite the fact that I rarely see him I realized I am falling for him and wanted to bump things up a notch-but that's hard to do when he's always too busy. So yesterday I felt so shitty about the whole thing my whole morning was wasted, I wrote a long letter about it to help me sort out what I was feeling, then sent him a short message asking if we could get together before he leaves town again, nothing crazy. He replied with this weeks too crazy but he's not leaving town till later next week now. Then I'm watching Sex and the City, and it's the episode with Burger telling the ladies-if he doesn't call, come up, or whatever, "He's Just Not That Into You"-what a fucking revelation! Then I remember I have a book with that title written by two of the writers from Sex and the City-I've had it for years, bought it for fun more than anything. I pulled it out last night and have almost finished reading it-I even missed my subway stop today because of it. It was great and has lifted this huge weight off my shoulders.

The point of this long ramble of mine? If he's giving you excuse after excuse as to why he can't see you, can't phone you, or whatever other behaviour that may have you questioning how awesome you are and if he really likes you? He's a coward who just can't tell you the truth..which is.. He's just not that into you.

I've wasted so much time on men who obviously fell into this category-how sad!