as much as i ever could
reading my last entry it was at the beginning of last year. now we are at the beginning of another. i would love to write about how all the time between now and then was everything i wanted it to be. i may not have everything i want but i have everything i will ever need. though everything i am still here. i am still here trying to be the best of things. the best girlfriend, the best friend, the best daughter, the best student. i must say things are coming around. its hard to keep my mind on the future. my mind travels, a lot to a time when it was connected and not disassembled. then i remind myself of where i am and who i have supporting me though anything i go through. and i remind myself of the person that you were and the person that you will never be again. i will always miss you. but i am a better person. i am a better person because of all the bullshit that i went though. i will never make the same mistakes is this new year. hopefully new ones wont arise. i promise myself that i wont let anything bring me down. that i will remain strong and stay true to what i believe in. though all this time past i still remember everything. and i have even more time to start forgetting.