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I just ate a whole chicken breast and an entire box of Rice A Roni. I didn't think it was possible, but evidently it is. Usually, that meal gets saran wrapped and I eat it for like the next few days. Such was not the case tonight
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I did a little search today and found something very interesting. I'm really sorry to see that this shit is still going on. The way you argued reminded me of you. I suppose you'll still deny who you are; that's fine I guess, but to tell you the truth I was hoping that eventually we could bury the hatchet because I miss having you around as a friend. We had some damn good times. Things are going really well for me now for the most part, and I've been hanging out with a few people from school. I was hoping that I could still rebuild some of those relationships. The shit we fought about was stupid then, and it's worse to be continuing it now. I've put my guilt and my demons to rest, and taken responsibility for the mistakes I've made...but no one's really bothered to hear it. I tried to apologize to you twice already, but you never seemed interested in fixing what was wrong.
The guys I'm in the band with are good people, good friends, and a helluva lot of fun. If you're ever interested in working things out, I'd still love to have you come down and hang out with us sometime. We play a mean game of Warcraft III, and our music's pretty good too.
Whatever you choose to do, whether you want to forgive, forget, or just move on, I truly hope that one way or another you'll put all that behind you. You were a good person when we were friends, and I've never thought otherwise. Granted, you're an arrogant, stubborn fucker who's obsessed with being right, and the reasons for that, though I have my guesses, I won't post here. I don't want to do anything to hurt you now, and I never meant to hurt you then. You had your imperfections, but that only made me value you more as a friend, because it made you unique; it made you interesting; and even though you buried it, it made you extremely empathetic of other people, and that was what made you so hard to argue with. Now here we are, arguing again...have you considered the possibility that maybe you missed it?
You're a good person with a good heart, and regardless of what you do or say, that's not going to change.
As YOUR mother once asked, "Do you love yourself?" To which you replied, (and I'll never forget it) "I love myself three times a day." lol...man that's some funny shit. But there's some truth to it though.
You've always deserved more than you allow yourself to have.
As my friend or not, please take care.
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P.S. He thought the loving himself 3 times a day was funny but when I told him you called him an "arrogant, stubborn fucker" he didn't take to kindly to it. He wanted me to tell you "now who's been reduced to calling names?" and said he’d E-mail you his cell # if you have anything you wanna say to him. He said more than what I’ve posted here but that's for you guys to deal with. I'd rather not get involved and will stick to our current topic of discussion if you don't mind. Given this new development I'm not even sure you'll want to continue our little discussion so it’s up too you.
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Your instruction to "Keep Digging" seems to suggest that at some point I will actually discover who you are. My guess is that you too are someone I went to high school with who's ended up at Western.
As far as my comment about being arrogant and stubborn, I meant that in a kind and affectionate way, not a vindictive one, but as always, I'm sure he'll take it how he wants to take it and not how it was intended. Seeing as how this isn't him, then I can't imagine he's interested in working things out.
There's one thing you're right about, and that's the fact that this development does change things significantly.
You entered into this conversation with malicious intent; to get into my life and try and stir up trouble. You've never admitted who you really are, you've lied about your identity, you start throwing out insults, accuse others of hipocracy but won't acknowledge it in yourself, and last but not least, you don't even bother to respond to the points others make. I'm sure there's more, but those are all the reasons I can think of off the top of my head.
I chose to continue these conversations for two reasons:
#1) Because I suspected that the person posting was my old best friend and I'd hoped to resolve things
#2) Because there was something to be gained from an intelligent discourse.
As I've said before, I'll continue these discussions as long as they remain reasonable and relevant. May I also point
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If I don't know you, then it's fine to continue these conversations anonymously. However, if I do know you, from HS or anywhere else, then you should really have the balls to tell everyone who you are. But in any case, you need to start replying to the points I make, even if you can't manage to reply to those of others. So, I will expect to recieve a coherent reply to my last post in which I presented four arguments. If all you can manage is more random responses (I understand that this last one was to an additional comment I made that was unassociated with our main discussion) then you're going to need a LJ of your own, because I won't post your random thoughts on here.
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