fall out boy to life epiphany
So I was just watching SNL and the musical guest was Fall Out Boy, who i like. But as I was watching, i realized, i dont really like them much at all. I can't ever understand what they say, the lead singer dosent pronounce the ends of words, and they kind of show off. I was totally shocked. I realized that the only reason I really liked them is because they were popular and on the radio. what kind of person does that make me? this caused me to take a more serious look at the rest of my life. I get so wrapped up in whats cool and who is wearing what, that i lose track of the feeling that I am ok. I belittle myself and think about all the ways i could be better, the ways I could be popular. I don't want to be that girl. The most attractive quality in a person is self confidence, and when i am constantly judging myself against other people, i don't have that. I admire those who can be ok with who they are, or at least be willing to work at it in a positive way. I think i just need to remind myself that i am ok as i already am, with a few small adjustments, of course. Everyone has their faults. I want so bad to be percieved as perfect by everyone, but I'm nowhere near close. Only one person has ever done that, and i don't think i'm gonna break his record. Its funny how little thinks like a song on tv can change your whole perspective. Anyway, thats whats on my mind.