So when im having a bad tripp or bleeding in my tub then you'll have time for me ...
dear friend,
ive known u since i was what 11? 12?..and now its like nothing ughh i fuckin hate it..i call you jsut to say hi and i get brushed off automatically u come out w/ srry im not chilling today..yea hi i didnt ask you if you were chilling im just calling to say hi douche!!..or ill get a cal from you out of the blue say your callin to see whast up and ask a favor from me..or stop by where i work thinkin your doing a nice thing but act like a total douche, or call me up to chill when you know i work 5 days a week and the times i work, and when i say srry im workin maybe when i get off in liek a hour ure respond w/ oh im not free then ..well you knwo what then dont fuckin cal me..cont make it liek your doin me a fuckin favor.
i know its not just me u dont have time for nemore tween school and her but still everyone atleast gets to see you here and there ..i get nothin ..for a while you were the only person i could talk to ..to open up to,say everything i felt/wanted to say but now theres no one ..
i know to do things on my own ..to deal w. things on my own but u know once in a while its good to share w/ that one person u knwo u can trust n wil always be there for u..even the days you would poke at me for hours to get everything that was bothering me off my chest but not tel me a single thing bout what was bothering you.
I loveed just spending my days in the house w/ u watching movies/sleeping/talking/dressing me up in diff things and posing me diff ways and takin my pictures/watchin you and your bro play video game for HOURS...to just laugh, scream or just say NOTHING at all.
but in the last couple of months everything seemed to fade away..i broke down one nite, you told me i was bein crazy how well always be friends that school is just gettin to ya n u need to do well..which is ok..i get that ..but then she came into your life and quickly you left mine.
so i finaly saw you tonite, prolly wouldnt have either if it wasnt for omar bein in bklyn..your home w/ her and your (yours and her) new puppy, the name calling "hunni..sweety..babe" calling the dog to come "come to mommy/daddy"...we didnt talk much ..was there anything to say..worth sayin?..so i just sat there and and thought to myself "he looks happy..i fucking hate her,...look at them they have there own lil family..fuck i hope hes happy...this is the last time il see you..talk to you..not like youll notice".....and then she comes in ..the lil cracked out girl..which really pisses me off ive known you for so long and nothin but her ...she comes n goes as she pleases.shes always welcomed..tonite was her bad shroom trip and she came to you to save her ..maybe thats it ..you want people you can fix..and you cant fix or help me so you just gave up..you know what AGHHHHHH!!! i dont fuckin know anymore..
so i guess this is where "nothing lasts forever" comes in ..i knew it would just like everything else does but deep down i wish it wouldnt ..but i cant stop it ..theres not much..well not anything i can do ....
just wish you the best of luck and all the happiness, by yourself and w/ her ...cause i hate to admit it as bad as i feel rite now bout this you do look really happy ..real content..(and i havent seen u liek this in a while)...and at the same time i wish i had that ..i wish i felt like you feel...i guess in time i will..il find mine someday (or even find myself) ....this is goodbye..farewell..be safe..enjoy your life ..il always remember the good times even the bad..al the time we spent togehter everything we talked bout..fought about..everything.
and if our paths should one day cross again,i wil always welcome you, your friendship w/ open arms and a open heart.
<3 roxxi
This is for a old friend ...just somethings i cant say to him or even give him in letter..so i write it here just to get it off my chest and done w/ ......im sorry
ive known u since i was what 11? 12?..and now its like nothing ughh i fuckin hate it..i call you jsut to say hi and i get brushed off automatically u come out w/ srry im not chilling today..yea hi i didnt ask you if you were chilling im just calling to say hi douche!!..or ill get a cal from you out of the blue say your callin to see whast up and ask a favor from me..or stop by where i work thinkin your doing a nice thing but act like a total douche, or call me up to chill when you know i work 5 days a week and the times i work, and when i say srry im workin maybe when i get off in liek a hour ure respond w/ oh im not free then ..well you knwo what then dont fuckin cal me..cont make it liek your doin me a fuckin favor.
i know its not just me u dont have time for nemore tween school and her but still everyone atleast gets to see you here and there ..i get nothin ..for a while you were the only person i could talk to ..to open up to,say everything i felt/wanted to say but now theres no one ..
i know to do things on my own ..to deal w. things on my own but u know once in a while its good to share w/ that one person u knwo u can trust n wil always be there for u..even the days you would poke at me for hours to get everything that was bothering me off my chest but not tel me a single thing bout what was bothering you.
I loveed just spending my days in the house w/ u watching movies/sleeping/talking/dressing me up in diff things and posing me diff ways and takin my pictures/watchin you and your bro play video game for HOURS...to just laugh, scream or just say NOTHING at all.
but in the last couple of months everything seemed to fade away..i broke down one nite, you told me i was bein crazy how well always be friends that school is just gettin to ya n u need to do well..which is ok..i get that ..but then she came into your life and quickly you left mine.
so i finaly saw you tonite, prolly wouldnt have either if it wasnt for omar bein in bklyn..your home w/ her and your (yours and her) new puppy, the name calling "hunni..sweety..babe" calling the dog to come "come to mommy/daddy"...we didnt talk much ..was there anything to say..worth sayin?..so i just sat there and and thought to myself "he looks happy..i fucking hate her,...look at them they have there own lil family..fuck i hope hes happy...this is the last time il see you..talk to you..not like youll notice".....and then she comes in ..the lil cracked out girl..which really pisses me off ive known you for so long and nothin but her ...she comes n goes as she pleases.shes always welcomed..tonite was her bad shroom trip and she came to you to save her ..maybe thats it ..you want people you can fix..and you cant fix or help me so you just gave up..you know what AGHHHHHH!!! i dont fuckin know anymore..
so i guess this is where "nothing lasts forever" comes in ..i knew it would just like everything else does but deep down i wish it wouldnt ..but i cant stop it ..theres not much..well not anything i can do ....
just wish you the best of luck and all the happiness, by yourself and w/ her ...cause i hate to admit it as bad as i feel rite now bout this you do look really happy ..real content..(and i havent seen u liek this in a while)...and at the same time i wish i had that ..i wish i felt like you feel...i guess in time i will..il find mine someday (or even find myself) ....this is goodbye..farewell..be safe..enjoy your life ..il always remember the good times even the bad..al the time we spent togehter everything we talked bout..fought about..everything.
and if our paths should one day cross again,i wil always welcome you, your friendship w/ open arms and a open heart.
<3 roxxi
This is for a old friend ...just somethings i cant say to him or even give him in letter..so i write it here just to get it off my chest and done w/ ......im sorry