who's that?...oh that's Melissa Paschke!
yes kids i've been gone for a long time, but now i'm back. I guess in many way's I've been gone. not just from live journal but from myself. But thankfully now Melissa is coming back, or maybe I'm really just meeting her for the first time.
Looking back on this past year, Yes I know it's still midterms, but lets face it kids this semester is almost over now and I am ready to reflect my views of college... thus far.
It is nothing like I thought it would be. I'm not even completly sure what I thought coming to IU was going to be like, but either way it is different. It's not a bad different or a good different.
I wish that I had done more on campus this year, and I wish that I had branched out more then I have. But I'm working on that. and this is where the person reflection of "meeting Melissa Paschke" comes in.
all of you reading this have an opinion or an idea of who Melissa Paschke is to you. she may be sweet and cute, but i'm sorry to report that this is not completely who i am. even though for the longest time that is what I thought.
Looking back now I realize that I have been disconnected with myself, and so I could not completley connect with others. So because I didn't not realize that the problem layed with in me I blamed the reason outside of myself and made myself un happy.
I am gald to reprot thought, that I am finally getting help for this. I hate to admit it. I wanted to think that I was strong enough to make my self "Better" with out help that the power rested in me. however I do have the power I just didn't know how to use it. Now by getting help i am learning how to wield that innner strength to rediscover of I am and who I want to be.
That's how detached I was. I didn't even know who or what I wanted to become. how can you live a life and be happy when you don't know what it is that makes you happy. I am finding this out now.
I know this is will be a long journey to self discovery and sometimes it's still hard to even know if we completley know ourselves. but I'm learning after all the "unexamened life is not worth living."
I don't know where this self discovery thing will take me, but thanks to my good friends they have inspired me enough to be strong and brave on my path even if it does lead me (or them) away from
eachothere.
So I am going to end this very long post now, and say this I can hardly spell this I know, but I don't have time for spell check right now so if it bothers you my apologies, but deal. lol
best love
Melissa Michelle Paschke
Looking back on this past year, Yes I know it's still midterms, but lets face it kids this semester is almost over now and I am ready to reflect my views of college... thus far.
It is nothing like I thought it would be. I'm not even completly sure what I thought coming to IU was going to be like, but either way it is different. It's not a bad different or a good different.
I wish that I had done more on campus this year, and I wish that I had branched out more then I have. But I'm working on that. and this is where the person reflection of "meeting Melissa Paschke" comes in.
all of you reading this have an opinion or an idea of who Melissa Paschke is to you. she may be sweet and cute, but i'm sorry to report that this is not completely who i am. even though for the longest time that is what I thought.
Looking back now I realize that I have been disconnected with myself, and so I could not completley connect with others. So because I didn't not realize that the problem layed with in me I blamed the reason outside of myself and made myself un happy.
I am gald to reprot thought, that I am finally getting help for this. I hate to admit it. I wanted to think that I was strong enough to make my self "Better" with out help that the power rested in me. however I do have the power I just didn't know how to use it. Now by getting help i am learning how to wield that innner strength to rediscover of I am and who I want to be.
That's how detached I was. I didn't even know who or what I wanted to become. how can you live a life and be happy when you don't know what it is that makes you happy. I am finding this out now.
I know this is will be a long journey to self discovery and sometimes it's still hard to even know if we completley know ourselves. but I'm learning after all the "unexamened life is not worth living."
I don't know where this self discovery thing will take me, but thanks to my good friends they have inspired me enough to be strong and brave on my path even if it does lead me (or them) away from
eachothere.
So I am going to end this very long post now, and say this I can hardly spell this I know, but I don't have time for spell check right now so if it bothers you my apologies, but deal. lol
best love
Melissa Michelle Paschke