Just Another Manic Monday o/`
So Friday afternoon while I was at work, I called my mom to see if she wanted to make some plans for Saturday. I knew I'd be working some extra hours yesterday and I agreed to a second contract for this weekend which means I'll be working the next 12 days straight, so I wanted to do something on my only day off until then.
As well my mom is off to a show in Sudbury, so she'll be gone from today until next Monday or Tuesday. So she called my sister and figured out some plans while I was at work but I misunderstood and thought because of hot weather that we weren't going... so instead, I stayed up very late and went to bed around 5am, only to be woken at 9am by the phone ringing (it was Mom, but I let my sister get it as I was still sleeping...) and then I got up again at 11am to learn we were going to meet my mother at her place which is about 30 minutes away, and then from there drive to Brockville to see the stone that was recently added to my niece's grave.
In trying to get out the door quickly, (as both my mother and I don't like to be late...), I rushed my sister to get ready which made everybody's patience go out the window... She would probably like me to note that I know nothing about trying to get herself and two kids ready and out the door. Apparently while bathing my nephew, he had an accident and while she was trying to clean that up and him, my niece decided this was when she wanted to have a bath to play too and was desparately wiggling her body to get in between and play with the water... lovely...
So when we finally got everyone into my van, which has seen better days but gets us from a to b much better than any public transportation, the anxiety and stress level was pretty high, so I go to back out into the street to drive away and I hear 'crunch, crunch, crunch' pretty loudly. I stop because I realize that I have either blown a tire or broken the axlee.. I can be a very emotional person, which I guess can be hard for the people around me to deal with, I recently was brought to the realization that it is not just emotional but that I have anxiety attacks that cause me to make myself sick at times... so my sister and the kids got out and went inside, with a mumbled obscenity by my sister as she was already upset I rushed her... I drove very carefully back into the driveway and called my mom.
My mom knew I was upset and said she'd come in to get us... so when I said that my sister was already mad about everything, she said well she'd do something just with me then as she knew I was upset. I went into the house to let them know mom was coming into town instead to take us or to do something with me if they didn't want to go anymore. I began to cry as I was so upset as it seems like every time I try to set up some family activity or do something nice, something else backfires and either world war 3 happens or some drama unfolds in trying to plan anything... and it's just so discouraging. So my sisfter gave my nephew to me to try to get me to calm down as he's pretty easygoing and happy so she thought it would cheer me up too...
My mom arrived shortly after, she even admitted speeding a little, and we all decided to go on our original plan and drive out to Brockville to see my first niece's grave - although for some reason we always get lost when we try to find Roselawn Cemetary... it's in the outskirts of Brockville and we were turned around a few times before we stopped for a bit of lunch and a bathroom break for mom & K. We enjoyed a quick lunch of steamie hotdogs and patate frites at Billy K's and then went out on our search again to find our destination.
My sister's first daughter died at 5 months old and it was very sad and although I know my mom goes to her grave often and I've been a few times, this was the second time we went as a family. A beautiful stone had recently been added for her as she was buried with her dad's family at the time, so we wanted to see it and visit her grave. We took some photos, my mom even explained a bit about it to my niece who is 5 now. We couldn't have asked for lovelier weather and on our way home we did some school shopping for K who starts Senior Kindergarten tomorrow.
And yesterday, the men in our house took care of getting me a new wheel and replacing the old one so I can drive again today. I am so thankful for that as I work a shift where there aren't many buses at 11pm, so it was quite upsetting to think I might have to worry about getting to and from work...
Well after working a little over 6 extra hours yesterday, and working the next 12 days, I will be busy but I hope to get a new scapbook album off the ground and Mr. Z's baby scrapbook finished very soon!
As well my mom is off to a show in Sudbury, so she'll be gone from today until next Monday or Tuesday. So she called my sister and figured out some plans while I was at work but I misunderstood and thought because of hot weather that we weren't going... so instead, I stayed up very late and went to bed around 5am, only to be woken at 9am by the phone ringing (it was Mom, but I let my sister get it as I was still sleeping...) and then I got up again at 11am to learn we were going to meet my mother at her place which is about 30 minutes away, and then from there drive to Brockville to see the stone that was recently added to my niece's grave.
In trying to get out the door quickly, (as both my mother and I don't like to be late...), I rushed my sister to get ready which made everybody's patience go out the window... She would probably like me to note that I know nothing about trying to get herself and two kids ready and out the door. Apparently while bathing my nephew, he had an accident and while she was trying to clean that up and him, my niece decided this was when she wanted to have a bath to play too and was desparately wiggling her body to get in between and play with the water... lovely...
So when we finally got everyone into my van, which has seen better days but gets us from a to b much better than any public transportation, the anxiety and stress level was pretty high, so I go to back out into the street to drive away and I hear 'crunch, crunch, crunch' pretty loudly. I stop because I realize that I have either blown a tire or broken the axlee.. I can be a very emotional person, which I guess can be hard for the people around me to deal with, I recently was brought to the realization that it is not just emotional but that I have anxiety attacks that cause me to make myself sick at times... so my sister and the kids got out and went inside, with a mumbled obscenity by my sister as she was already upset I rushed her... I drove very carefully back into the driveway and called my mom.
My mom knew I was upset and said she'd come in to get us... so when I said that my sister was already mad about everything, she said well she'd do something just with me then as she knew I was upset. I went into the house to let them know mom was coming into town instead to take us or to do something with me if they didn't want to go anymore. I began to cry as I was so upset as it seems like every time I try to set up some family activity or do something nice, something else backfires and either world war 3 happens or some drama unfolds in trying to plan anything... and it's just so discouraging. So my sisfter gave my nephew to me to try to get me to calm down as he's pretty easygoing and happy so she thought it would cheer me up too...
My mom arrived shortly after, she even admitted speeding a little, and we all decided to go on our original plan and drive out to Brockville to see my first niece's grave - although for some reason we always get lost when we try to find Roselawn Cemetary... it's in the outskirts of Brockville and we were turned around a few times before we stopped for a bit of lunch and a bathroom break for mom & K. We enjoyed a quick lunch of steamie hotdogs and patate frites at Billy K's and then went out on our search again to find our destination.
My sister's first daughter died at 5 months old and it was very sad and although I know my mom goes to her grave often and I've been a few times, this was the second time we went as a family. A beautiful stone had recently been added for her as she was buried with her dad's family at the time, so we wanted to see it and visit her grave. We took some photos, my mom even explained a bit about it to my niece who is 5 now. We couldn't have asked for lovelier weather and on our way home we did some school shopping for K who starts Senior Kindergarten tomorrow.
And yesterday, the men in our house took care of getting me a new wheel and replacing the old one so I can drive again today. I am so thankful for that as I work a shift where there aren't many buses at 11pm, so it was quite upsetting to think I might have to worry about getting to and from work...
Well after working a little over 6 extra hours yesterday, and working the next 12 days, I will be busy but I hope to get a new scapbook album off the ground and Mr. Z's baby scrapbook finished very soon!