Man, I feel like a woman
So I am wearing my Ball State shirt today. Their football team has been having an awesome undeafted run this season, and since my parents met there, and since my college teams are division 3 and suck, it is fun to get into the hype. So I might watch the game with the fam with a homecooked meal tonight, or I might stay home and clean, I haven't decided yet. I probably should clean and work on my apps for gradschool...but it depends on how bored I am.
I have to say though, in general, life is really good right now. I mean, I feel like a new woman, a better woman then I have felt like in a long time. I am not letting the little things bother me as much anymore, things that would have, before, lead me into a panic attack don't mean as much, and I am more ready and willing to point out an unhealthy action and rid myself of the action that could possibly lead me down a negative path. I like my job more, it is easier to get up in the morning, I am excited about things to come, and I don't dwell as much on the things and the people who I once trusted letting me down, because I know that I am enough. It is so great, before, I didn't even fully realize there was a problem. I thought that with my opinions it was impossible to not have a negative and horrible feeling all of the time, but the thing is...I haven't changed, my mind is still the same, my opinions unwavered...but I don't feel the same way about it. Somehow it all doesn't make me want to stop trying anymore, I feel like it is amazing that we continue inspite of it.
I am just, happy to be alive.