Bye Bye Friendship Hello Medicine
So I am a pseudo-single 20 year old lance corporal who has two, count them two, Navy Leutinents (O-3 for the Navy), promising to call him back. LMAO. Granted they are both doctors one calling me back to tell me when I can go to Balboa in San Diego for more Psychiactric tests and one from the Group Aid Station toe tell me when the radiologist calls back and determines if the new x-rays show a new break in my hand or if that is part of the original break.
I made the mistake of looking at Rubi's picture. See the problem is I have visions of her when I do that and I always get this mistaken impression we are still friends. So of course I try to IM her and she just logs off every time I get online now. Guess her fiancee makes old friends an unneeded burden eh? Oh well. MY psychologist says I need to use the Mantra "And this too shall pass" (From the bible). I have an awesome old Irish lady who is part native american and studied in a buddhist monistary for 17 years to counsel me. She says she believes I'm bipolar...
For any keeping score that is yet another condition that is not acceptable to have in the military but watch them turn a blind eye to it anyway. in short the Marines lose. Either they get rid of me for being bipolar or they let me stay in and be put on mind altering medicaiton but that makes it so I can never deploy or perform the duties of a basic Marine. Awesome. Take onto that my pulmonary difficulties stemming from childhood asthma that that LTJG (O-2 navy) wanted to kick me out of boot camp for also exists and the fact I'm fast becomming a conciouncious objecter. yeah.
So in short add another lost friend to the list and more official deffinitions of my mental state. Thankfully there are some friends that I was worried they'd be upset by the news and ended up saying "I'm glad they have something to call it now so you will be better." OMG. I am eternally grateful to them. But I wonder if I'll ever be happy agian like I was before Danny moved. I won;t be here that is for sure. Although there are some neat haunted places here that peak my interest.
I made the mistake of looking at Rubi's picture. See the problem is I have visions of her when I do that and I always get this mistaken impression we are still friends. So of course I try to IM her and she just logs off every time I get online now. Guess her fiancee makes old friends an unneeded burden eh? Oh well. MY psychologist says I need to use the Mantra "And this too shall pass" (From the bible). I have an awesome old Irish lady who is part native american and studied in a buddhist monistary for 17 years to counsel me. She says she believes I'm bipolar...
For any keeping score that is yet another condition that is not acceptable to have in the military but watch them turn a blind eye to it anyway. in short the Marines lose. Either they get rid of me for being bipolar or they let me stay in and be put on mind altering medicaiton but that makes it so I can never deploy or perform the duties of a basic Marine. Awesome. Take onto that my pulmonary difficulties stemming from childhood asthma that that LTJG (O-2 navy) wanted to kick me out of boot camp for also exists and the fact I'm fast becomming a conciouncious objecter. yeah.
So in short add another lost friend to the list and more official deffinitions of my mental state. Thankfully there are some friends that I was worried they'd be upset by the news and ended up saying "I'm glad they have something to call it now so you will be better." OMG. I am eternally grateful to them. But I wonder if I'll ever be happy agian like I was before Danny moved. I won;t be here that is for sure. Although there are some neat haunted places here that peak my interest.