Brother, Friend ... For John Michael Klas
I should have seen the signs
Should have realized it would come to this.
Should have guarded your heart and mine
Should have foreseen and made sure that it was you I wouldn't miss.
I wish I could go back now
Because all that's left is memories.
And that's not enough to express how
Very much you meant to me
My twin, my angel, my second-best friend
Are these wounds ones that will mend?
I think of playing at church or lying in the grass
Or talking for hours that we'd never notice pass
I think of how much you changed me
How much I changed you
I remember my new maturity
I remember how time flew
I thought we'd always have this
Thought I'd finally found my brother
Now I lie here utterly hopeless
Because you can't take seeing me in the arms of another
A part of me is gone now
A part of me I have to realize won't come back.
It's so hard to accept this change
Too hard to think I'll always have this lack
"We still have all the good times to remember,"
Is what you said to me on the phone.
It's true we'll never loose those good times
But does that really mean anything now that you're gone?
All those good times are just thorns right now
Perhaps I'll see them better after time
But right now my pain is all I have left of you
So maybe I can forgive this rhymeless rhyme.
We were so much to each other
How can I let this go?
How can I loose a brother?
If I can heal I just don't know
I hope I heal soon, though, because I can't take this much longer
How many tears I've cried, perhaps I'll never know
Wallowing in this pain, I just want to be stronger
So this suffering, this agony will end
Blood, sweat, and tears?
Maybe not blood, but certainly tears.
Maybe not sweat, but certainly years.
All the years I loved you like my brother ...
Goodbye, my brother, friend.