Education
Usually a person will spend their entire senior year in high school contemplating the next step in their education. They will decided to go to college or not to go to college, they will decide which college they will go to, they will gather ideas and plans from all over, and they’ll pinpoint their passions and desires until they know what they want to major in and what they want to become. Sometimes this process begins even before the senior year, or before high school entirely. Sometimes this process is overlooked and people graduate without definite plans in mind. They’ll spend a few years thinking about, contemplating different avenues, and in the end they’ll make a decision based on their observations and thoughts over those past few years.
I suppose I don’t fit into either category. It’s not completely abnormal to never think of your future after high school, but I know it’s not normal to get on your computer one day and decide to go to school. One does not simply say, I think I’ll find my goal today, this very moment, when one has not even had the slightest shadow of a goal before then.
Or so I believed. I sometimes surprise myself by breaking the most fundamental laws I had held from observing human kind. Perhaps one can take a step that large within the span to a minute. Perhaps, as happened with me, three days later, one will spend two or three hours on the phone with an assistant director of admissions, discussing a very palpable possibility of enrollment.
I am beginning to find myself far along down a road I had never even imagined traveling until, just the day before yesterday. Is it possible that my future is coming this fast? I always thought that the future was forever a step ahead, something you looked at and walked into gradually, not something that sprang back upon you before you were able to move.
The step I took on Monday was probably the most drastic and most sudden step I have ever taken … but somehow it feels right. I just wish the human part of me weren’t so afraid.
P.S: I feel like I'm dating two guys at the same time, and I'm not even dating either of them.