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I'm at a strange point in life right now, and I need to write it out to get it out of my head.
Okay, we all know that ex-boyfriend Justin is a crazy bitch. A few months ago I started talking with our mutual friend Lawrence, whom I had become fond of, and in a jealous streak he and his friend Jason started harrassing me, calling several times an hour, accusing me of all sorts of horrible things and just generally calling me names and being childish. I reported this to my mother, who told me to call the police. I did, and they made a report (I've done this before, ladies. It's old news. You should do it too!). Then Justin used Lawrence's mobile to call me, to 'prove' to me that they were in on it together. That was it for me--I reported the call and the number, and decided to kick Lawrence out of my life for good.
Well, a few Justin-less months later, Lawrence called me, said that he had come to see what a terrible person Justin was, and had kicked him out of the house they had moved into together in Florida. And having come to see that, he wanted to try to cultivate a relationship with me. Naturally, I was skeptical. Besides, I was in a rather fruitful relationship with Michael at the time. At first he asked me to fly to Florida to be with him for 'a couple of weeks,' which I laughed at. I told him that he could come and see me if he liked, but that there was no way I would put myself in his (and likely Justin's) hands. Despite my issues with his drug problem, I decided to stick with Michael and hope for the best. And that's how I left for Quantico.
Of course, as we all expected, Michael chose drugs and his pothead friends over me, and when I returned home he informed me that he didn't want a relationship anymore. Thankfully I wasn't feeling much of anything then, and that just made me more numb. But Lawrence insisted that he wanted to help me get through the trauma and really start a relationship. Having nothing better to do, I told him I'd entertain the idea, but I made it clear that I wouldn't trust him and CERTAINLY wouldn't sleep with him if he came to see me. He seemed disappointed, but accepted it.
Since then I've been purposefully distant from him. I've needed time to heal on my own, and I've been surrounding myself with good, old friends. Besides, he kept telling me he would call me at a certain time and he never did it. A couple of times he offered to send me a written workout, then didn't until about four days after he said he would. The kind of traits you'd expect in a person you wouldn't even consider calling a friend. But I kept telling myself to just play along until he came to visit. Maybe once we saw each other face-to-face we could straighten things out.
Then, today, I see this from "Justin LaCaille" on Lawrence's facebook wall:
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Justin LaCaille Wow...what...an...idiot.
Years from now we will still find a way to use it for something funny.
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So now I'm faced with two possible scenarios. One: Justin is still on his jealous streak and wants to make me believe that Lawrence is in on this. Or Two: it's the same old bullshit and Lawrence has finally lost the privilege of talking to me.
The second sounds more likely. If Lawrence really wanted to be with me, he wouldn't have kept the little bastard as a friend. We talked about that, and Lawrence told me that he felt sorry for him because he didn't really have any friends, and that made sense to me. But at the core of all this, I was considering breaking things off with him anyway. He has always been a playboy, and I've become quite prudent over the past months. If any, I want a lifelong, sterdy relationship with someone with whom I have mutual respect. And I've never thought that Lawrence could provide me with that. So really, now that I'm writing this, I don't have much of a reason to keep contact with him regardless.
If this is some sort of plan between the two of them, I'm trying to decide if it would be worthwhile to report them again. But in that scenario, it's also my own stupidity for giving Lawrence another chance. And Justin has such a record built up now, we're getting to the 'pressing charges' point. Do I want to deal with all that again? I'm not sure. But that's what's on my mind.
Thanks, livejournal.
Okay, we all know that ex-boyfriend Justin is a crazy bitch. A few months ago I started talking with our mutual friend Lawrence, whom I had become fond of, and in a jealous streak he and his friend Jason started harrassing me, calling several times an hour, accusing me of all sorts of horrible things and just generally calling me names and being childish. I reported this to my mother, who told me to call the police. I did, and they made a report (I've done this before, ladies. It's old news. You should do it too!). Then Justin used Lawrence's mobile to call me, to 'prove' to me that they were in on it together. That was it for me--I reported the call and the number, and decided to kick Lawrence out of my life for good.
Well, a few Justin-less months later, Lawrence called me, said that he had come to see what a terrible person Justin was, and had kicked him out of the house they had moved into together in Florida. And having come to see that, he wanted to try to cultivate a relationship with me. Naturally, I was skeptical. Besides, I was in a rather fruitful relationship with Michael at the time. At first he asked me to fly to Florida to be with him for 'a couple of weeks,' which I laughed at. I told him that he could come and see me if he liked, but that there was no way I would put myself in his (and likely Justin's) hands. Despite my issues with his drug problem, I decided to stick with Michael and hope for the best. And that's how I left for Quantico.
Of course, as we all expected, Michael chose drugs and his pothead friends over me, and when I returned home he informed me that he didn't want a relationship anymore. Thankfully I wasn't feeling much of anything then, and that just made me more numb. But Lawrence insisted that he wanted to help me get through the trauma and really start a relationship. Having nothing better to do, I told him I'd entertain the idea, but I made it clear that I wouldn't trust him and CERTAINLY wouldn't sleep with him if he came to see me. He seemed disappointed, but accepted it.
Since then I've been purposefully distant from him. I've needed time to heal on my own, and I've been surrounding myself with good, old friends. Besides, he kept telling me he would call me at a certain time and he never did it. A couple of times he offered to send me a written workout, then didn't until about four days after he said he would. The kind of traits you'd expect in a person you wouldn't even consider calling a friend. But I kept telling myself to just play along until he came to visit. Maybe once we saw each other face-to-face we could straighten things out.
Then, today, I see this from "Justin LaCaille" on Lawrence's facebook wall:
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Justin LaCaille Wow...what...an...idiot.
Years from now we will still find a way to use it for something funny.
----------------
So now I'm faced with two possible scenarios. One: Justin is still on his jealous streak and wants to make me believe that Lawrence is in on this. Or Two: it's the same old bullshit and Lawrence has finally lost the privilege of talking to me.
The second sounds more likely. If Lawrence really wanted to be with me, he wouldn't have kept the little bastard as a friend. We talked about that, and Lawrence told me that he felt sorry for him because he didn't really have any friends, and that made sense to me. But at the core of all this, I was considering breaking things off with him anyway. He has always been a playboy, and I've become quite prudent over the past months. If any, I want a lifelong, sterdy relationship with someone with whom I have mutual respect. And I've never thought that Lawrence could provide me with that. So really, now that I'm writing this, I don't have much of a reason to keep contact with him regardless.
If this is some sort of plan between the two of them, I'm trying to decide if it would be worthwhile to report them again. But in that scenario, it's also my own stupidity for giving Lawrence another chance. And Justin has such a record built up now, we're getting to the 'pressing charges' point. Do I want to deal with all that again? I'm not sure. But that's what's on my mind.
Thanks, livejournal.