hey
This week has been such a strange one. I'm exhausted. It's been both physically and emotionally draining. Anyone who actually knows me will know that I hate to admit such a weakness, but a lack of sleep and stress are really taking their toll on me. I can't feel depressed, because that's just ridiculous, I have way too many good things going on in my life to blind myself with that, but I just don't feel like I have the energy to be really happy. I smile and laugh when I'm preoccupied with people who make me feel good, but when it's just me and my thoughts for company I find myself feeling uncontrollably numb, just wanting to let the next four months to wash over me. I'll be fine. I know this. It's always fine. I just want to feel something big. I want to cry, for joy or sorrow, I just want something to break up this monotonous numbness.