A mile and a half of lollybloggery
Well, it's been another year. Almost, anyways. Just a little more to go before we can start a new one.
Phew. Can't wait to start another disaster!
Oh, wait. That's negative thinking.
I can't wait to fix another disaster!!
... not much better? Well. Shit. :p
Well, as a bit of an actual update.....
The ankle fiasco is slowing resolving itself, and my ankle swells less and less each day as long as I'm good to it.
Which means it's usually swollen like Bill Clinton's ego on most days, especially ones that I roll it off the curb while going into my car.
I never said I was graceful. Thank god I didn't have my heart set on being a ballerina....
I have been twitchy to start running again lately, especially the last few weeks. Granted, every time I think I might be able to try it, either my knee gives out or I think of the moment I actually broke it, and I chicken out again. I guess I have a new fear.... hopefully it's one I can get over. Really. What kind of fear is "running"? People will likely take it as running away from my problems or such, but nope.... just scared of physically running. I don't run from problems very well -- I face them head first, no matter if a brick wall is in the way. Or if the problem IS a brick wall. No wonder my head hurts so bad on most days.....
So, thankfully, no running... especially with the constant pain that still exists in my knee. That happiness I was hoping for for a single day pain-free? Totally hasn't happened. It's almost as bad as 24/7 PMS, except I don't bleed from my knee despite how it feels....
I went in to see my surgeon, however, and thankfully he agreed that something needed to get done. The MRI I had done this summer radiated like a fat kid on a smarty, so nothing could really be seen around the hardware. Who knows what's there? They were able to determine that there was scar tissue in the ligaments and holes in the meniscus, but only on the inside of the knee. What's on the outside remains a mystery, and if there's that much build up on the side I didn't shatter, methinks they'll find something later....
So surgery is officially scheduled -- I got my phone call today, so on January 14th I'll be going into day surgery for an arthroscopy and to remove the hardware. Who knows? Maybe it's just and errant screw messing with the ligaments causing the problems. I hope that's the case, but we'll find out. I have nearly two months to get everything prepped, finances included!
Which brings me to the next... as many people know, feeder deliveries came to an abrupt, rude halt. Yep, life sucked for awhile, but that's simply life. Unfortunately, I met yet another case of needing to remember to rely on myself, but before I could get that going again I needed to find some kind of income, since I really haven't made anything this year. The business nearly paid for itself, and that fact alone makes me PROUD considering we did not take out a loan to get it going. Yep, I made a bunch of mistakes, but I learned, and think I learned well -- I'm not completely dropping anything, and hope to be back up by spring time with new ideas.
In the mean time, I have picked up a full time nights dispatch position at Day and Ross Dedicated in Edmonton. So far, I actually like it. The Mondays they have me working are... well.... slow. Really slow. As in read a novel a day kind of slow. So the change of pace is definitely fantastic, I"m definitely not used to slacking and getting paid for it. They're laid back and don't seem to care what you do, as long as the job is done and properly. This is the kind of people I like to work for! Hopefully it goes well. Time will tell. If so, I'll be on salary after six months, and because it's nights, I believe I can still run my own business while working full time, which is something I probably should have been doing for awhile. So while part time was ideal, it will be nice to have financial freedom again, especially after the tight situation we got ourselves into this summer.....
This year was tough, as the previous couple of year has been. I hope this was the final kick, though, and things look up from here. Since being home for the last couple of weeks, I've caught up on where I like to be cleanliness-wise again, and it's nice to feel at home once again instead of simply behind.
Happiness?
Yes, please. I'd like you to stay. Please, stick around for a little while longer.
Phew. Can't wait to start another disaster!
Oh, wait. That's negative thinking.
I can't wait to fix another disaster!!
... not much better? Well. Shit. :p
Well, as a bit of an actual update.....
The ankle fiasco is slowing resolving itself, and my ankle swells less and less each day as long as I'm good to it.
Which means it's usually swollen like Bill Clinton's ego on most days, especially ones that I roll it off the curb while going into my car.
I never said I was graceful. Thank god I didn't have my heart set on being a ballerina....
I have been twitchy to start running again lately, especially the last few weeks. Granted, every time I think I might be able to try it, either my knee gives out or I think of the moment I actually broke it, and I chicken out again. I guess I have a new fear.... hopefully it's one I can get over. Really. What kind of fear is "running"? People will likely take it as running away from my problems or such, but nope.... just scared of physically running. I don't run from problems very well -- I face them head first, no matter if a brick wall is in the way. Or if the problem IS a brick wall. No wonder my head hurts so bad on most days.....
So, thankfully, no running... especially with the constant pain that still exists in my knee. That happiness I was hoping for for a single day pain-free? Totally hasn't happened. It's almost as bad as 24/7 PMS, except I don't bleed from my knee despite how it feels....
I went in to see my surgeon, however, and thankfully he agreed that something needed to get done. The MRI I had done this summer radiated like a fat kid on a smarty, so nothing could really be seen around the hardware. Who knows what's there? They were able to determine that there was scar tissue in the ligaments and holes in the meniscus, but only on the inside of the knee. What's on the outside remains a mystery, and if there's that much build up on the side I didn't shatter, methinks they'll find something later....
So surgery is officially scheduled -- I got my phone call today, so on January 14th I'll be going into day surgery for an arthroscopy and to remove the hardware. Who knows? Maybe it's just and errant screw messing with the ligaments causing the problems. I hope that's the case, but we'll find out. I have nearly two months to get everything prepped, finances included!
Which brings me to the next... as many people know, feeder deliveries came to an abrupt, rude halt. Yep, life sucked for awhile, but that's simply life. Unfortunately, I met yet another case of needing to remember to rely on myself, but before I could get that going again I needed to find some kind of income, since I really haven't made anything this year. The business nearly paid for itself, and that fact alone makes me PROUD considering we did not take out a loan to get it going. Yep, I made a bunch of mistakes, but I learned, and think I learned well -- I'm not completely dropping anything, and hope to be back up by spring time with new ideas.
In the mean time, I have picked up a full time nights dispatch position at Day and Ross Dedicated in Edmonton. So far, I actually like it. The Mondays they have me working are... well.... slow. Really slow. As in read a novel a day kind of slow. So the change of pace is definitely fantastic, I"m definitely not used to slacking and getting paid for it. They're laid back and don't seem to care what you do, as long as the job is done and properly. This is the kind of people I like to work for! Hopefully it goes well. Time will tell. If so, I'll be on salary after six months, and because it's nights, I believe I can still run my own business while working full time, which is something I probably should have been doing for awhile. So while part time was ideal, it will be nice to have financial freedom again, especially after the tight situation we got ourselves into this summer.....
This year was tough, as the previous couple of year has been. I hope this was the final kick, though, and things look up from here. Since being home for the last couple of weeks, I've caught up on where I like to be cleanliness-wise again, and it's nice to feel at home once again instead of simply behind.
Happiness?
Yes, please. I'd like you to stay. Please, stick around for a little while longer.