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Last night I thought about everything that has been going on. Thought about the past 2 years and how much I miss the good times. But it doesn't change the fact that we didn't work out and we didn't put in the effort until things went too wrong to be salvaged. We never really said our goodbyes, but I know it's time for us to let go now.
I just need time to clear up the mess I've created, to make sense of whatever that's been happening.
Through it all I need to learn to count my blessings. As much as I'm bothered by how fake some people are, I know there are always the few who will stand by me, no matter what decisions I make. I am more than thankful.
Trust isn't something that comes easily, and I am trying to put my trust in you, hoping you will never break it. I'm taking a chance, hoping everything will turn out the way we want it to.
Pardon me for random ramblings on this post. Exams are really here soon and I'm fretting. I have lost my motivation so pls pray I get it back. I want my 2nd upper very badly.
Thanks to those who have been showering me with love and concern, it keeps me sane <3