"vanitas." - Kyo/Ruki - 1/1.

[route337]

Title: vanitas.
Chapters: 1/1.
Author: route337
Genre: Romance.
Rating: PG.
Band: Dir en grey, the GazettE.
Pairing: Kyo/Ruki.
Warnings: None.
Disclaimer: Am a liar.
Summary: Kyo's scars were bleeding, but all the pain is inside his head.

Comments

[rheakurokawa]

you know he doesn't cut on stage anymore. i wonder if it's because of something management said or that he just couldn't go any further without trespassing, passing a threshold into somewhere else entirely, summoning that other self or selves and letting them take over. i think kyo is authentic, was always, i think most of what we see is true, not just show, i know on a smaller level we can all feel that madness at a concert, or when submitting to a passion. mmusic definitely has that attribute of incantation, summon, going into you, like drugs, completely like drugs. loosing oneself, bringing out the Other. but i also think he sometimes may want to be normal. i think maybe dissociating between the two is hard. i don't know. i talk a lot about this because it fascinates me, this loosing of oneself, completely submerging to a feeling, a mood, going somewhere else. and coming back. masks can take over and depersonalize (like with uruha perhaps, or the fictional uruha) but with kyo there is no mask, but the subconscious, untamed, untainted, uncontrolled inner SELF that is out there and erupts, raw like a pulp of meat. good, bad, it has no notion, it just is, no judgement. that's what comes out in those moments when you can see with your own eyes that he's losing it, he's gone somewhere else. mushi, zakuro, a lot of them, agitated screams unplugged probably the most

i liked the difference between ruki and kyo here the most. where they come together and where they actually don't

[rheakurokawa]

and how ruki kinda balances it.

this was beautiful

There was something in Kyo's eyes that said that this world was not enough, that he needed to grasp the straws of something revolutionary.