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im getting to the point where i want kill some people
i hate a lot of shit around me right now.
i hate fucking crying but id explode if i didnt
i dont understand how my saying 'well i dont remeber anything that you were saying before so..' could turn to shit
it was meant to be light hearted. to get back on topic. to get off the mix of negative things I did during the conversation and back to what the original subject matter was. i said this.. during the dying momments. it was directed at my mother. this is what happens next, youll get an idea of what happened prior based on the answers and responses to queations and so on. this is also summarized so its my dad/mom and me. and i cut out the back and forth shit.
"what do you mean?"
"i mean i dont remember what you were saying before what point you trying to make"
"does that not show you how you werent paying attention?"
"no it means that i dont remeber everything that was said at the end before... all..this.. stuff happened"
""why cant you admit you werent listening?"
"i was listening i just dont remeber because i got distracted when we started dealing with how i give the impression that im not listening"
"jesus christ why are you always so damn defensive about this, why cant you see it?"
"i do see it, i t was meant to be lighthearted like..to get away from the other stuff. it wasnt meant as anything bad or wtv.."
"its not only that. the way you put it was taking a jab at us. it wasnt anything innocent. you blame us for making it go off topic and you were taking a shot at that fact"
"what? no!? what are you saying"
REPEATED
""what are you talking about? it wasnt meant as anything . i just said it. it wasnt meant as anything. i wasnt taking a shot"
AT THIS POINT DAD STORMS OFF CAUSE THE POOR BABY COULDNT GET A WORD IN
"this is ridiculous..i cannot beleive this is -"
"what are you saying about me? youre saying that i would go to that level of jabbing you? if i didnt care about what you had to saty i woulda nofdded yes yes and picked up my plate and put it to wash. thats it. but i didnt.i asked you what you were saying cause i was interested, cause i wanted to know!"
MOM STARTS TRYING TO EXPLAN IT AGAIN
I REPEAT IT HOLDING IN MY EMOTIONS. I WAS LOUD AT THIS POINT. OBVIOUSLY FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY
SHE BEGINS RE EXPLANING IT TRYING TO FUCKING COVINCE ME OF SOMETHING
I CHOKE TEARS BACK
"You gonna cry? fine..."
THE END
i hate a lot of shit around me right now.
i hate fucking crying but id explode if i didnt
i dont understand how my saying 'well i dont remeber anything that you were saying before so..' could turn to shit
it was meant to be light hearted. to get back on topic. to get off the mix of negative things I did during the conversation and back to what the original subject matter was. i said this.. during the dying momments. it was directed at my mother. this is what happens next, youll get an idea of what happened prior based on the answers and responses to queations and so on. this is also summarized so its my dad/mom and me. and i cut out the back and forth shit.
"what do you mean?"
"i mean i dont remember what you were saying before what point you trying to make"
"does that not show you how you werent paying attention?"
"no it means that i dont remeber everything that was said at the end before... all..this.. stuff happened"
""why cant you admit you werent listening?"
"i was listening i just dont remeber because i got distracted when we started dealing with how i give the impression that im not listening"
"jesus christ why are you always so damn defensive about this, why cant you see it?"
"i do see it, i t was meant to be lighthearted like..to get away from the other stuff. it wasnt meant as anything bad or wtv.."
"its not only that. the way you put it was taking a jab at us. it wasnt anything innocent. you blame us for making it go off topic and you were taking a shot at that fact"
"what? no!? what are you saying"
REPEATED
""what are you talking about? it wasnt meant as anything . i just said it. it wasnt meant as anything. i wasnt taking a shot"
AT THIS POINT DAD STORMS OFF CAUSE THE POOR BABY COULDNT GET A WORD IN
"this is ridiculous..i cannot beleive this is -"
"what are you saying about me? youre saying that i would go to that level of jabbing you? if i didnt care about what you had to saty i woulda nofdded yes yes and picked up my plate and put it to wash. thats it. but i didnt.i asked you what you were saying cause i was interested, cause i wanted to know!"
MOM STARTS TRYING TO EXPLAN IT AGAIN
I REPEAT IT HOLDING IN MY EMOTIONS. I WAS LOUD AT THIS POINT. OBVIOUSLY FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY
SHE BEGINS RE EXPLANING IT TRYING TO FUCKING COVINCE ME OF SOMETHING
I CHOKE TEARS BACK
"You gonna cry? fine..."
THE END