Letting Go: A Year in Review
(Disclaimer: Truthiness inside. And before you ask, no it's not about you, even if it is.)
Time to celebrate another successful (almost) complete revolution around the sun. I thought I'd take a moment and reflect on what's happened in the last year, and perhaps think about where my future is going.
27 was a rough year for me. A lot of transitions happened, some good, some bad, but I think the single-most important lesson I've learned is to let go. It's OKAY to let go of things. To throw them out. Get rid of them. But to also set them free. To stop controlling so much.
My life has changed in so many ways these last 364 days.
- I started school again full-time for the first time in 5 years.
- I have (yet another) new job, but I've reached the 9 month mark, and intend to stay at least another year.
- I have a new profession that I can now fall back on if other things in my life don't work out.
- I have 3 pets now - more than I ever thought I'd EVER have. One seemed like enough, but three is actually easier. Somehow. (Paperbedding everywhere notwithstanding)
- I was dumped. It was an interesting experience.
- I ended a relationship which was becoming abusive and hurtful.
- I ended a relationship before I could hurt someone for not being there when I should have been, and I'm glad because she's with someone better for her, now.
- I ended several relationships in my mind. Some of them were because I wasn't ready. Some of them were because they weren't ready. And some of them were because it was the Right Thing to Do at the time.
- I watched a woman I love get married for all the wrong reasons logically, but all the right reasons emotionally, and that's what's important in my book.
- I watched a man I love struggle with his emotions because while he craves companionship, he pushes away everyone he's close to.
- I watched a woman I love grow closer to a man I adore, and had to stand by to watch, since I'm certain he loves her back.
- I watched a man I love finally start to accept himself for who he truly is, even if it's an ongoing battle.
- I've met some very incredible new people, rekindled old friendships, and found friends in people I've known for ages but never expected to truly know at all.
- I've slept without my fox more times this last year than in total since I've gotten her. Not sure if that's a good thing, yet.
- I've been at my heaviest, and my lightest, weight wise in the last 5 years.
- I've finally started writing music again.
- I built a fursuit for a friend.
- I've tackled some of my commissions. Need to finish them. Just do them. Seriously, Rourkie, what the hell.
- I threw out 3 bags of plushies and 2 bags of clothes. Still have a plan to go through the rest of stuff.
- I'm sleeping in my own bed by myself, which means I'm dreaming again, too.
I've done a lot. Probably a lot more could fit on this list, but I'm tired and need to get some rest. Perhaps more tomorrow.
Or perhaps, I'll just let this go, too... = )