Still missing people....
I've been thinking a lot about my past. I know that it wasn't the best and I wasn't the easiest person to be friends with. I think in the years since I started this journal things have changed. Basically, I grew up. When this was started and even before it was I was still finding my way in this world.
I held a lot of anger and resentment against certain friends. Which I shouldn't have. There were a lot of things beyond my control and that of friends. It was a big case of me and not them. I couldn't see the forest through the trees at the time though.
Now I wish I could tell some of these friends sorry. Even if they have no clue what I'm speaking of. I feel like I owe them that much. Unfortunately, I have lost contact with a great many of them. Not going to lie there are some people that need to stay lost but there are some that I want to reconnect with. We might not be able to have the same types of friendships but I do miss them.
I've been sorely tempted to look them up on fb and send messages. I've sent one but I know it went to the 'other' box and a lot of people don't look at that or can't because of how fb works. I know that if it is meant to be it will happen. Yes, I still leave a lot up to fate. That's just how I roll.
Anyways, not much else going on. Trying to get ready for CampNaNo that starts in less than 14hrs. Also debating collecting some poetry/short stories and publishing them. We shall see.
Take care, lovelies.
I held a lot of anger and resentment against certain friends. Which I shouldn't have. There were a lot of things beyond my control and that of friends. It was a big case of me and not them. I couldn't see the forest through the trees at the time though.
Now I wish I could tell some of these friends sorry. Even if they have no clue what I'm speaking of. I feel like I owe them that much. Unfortunately, I have lost contact with a great many of them. Not going to lie there are some people that need to stay lost but there are some that I want to reconnect with. We might not be able to have the same types of friendships but I do miss them.
I've been sorely tempted to look them up on fb and send messages. I've sent one but I know it went to the 'other' box and a lot of people don't look at that or can't because of how fb works. I know that if it is meant to be it will happen. Yes, I still leave a lot up to fate. That's just how I roll.
Anyways, not much else going on. Trying to get ready for CampNaNo that starts in less than 14hrs. Also debating collecting some poetry/short stories and publishing them. We shall see.
Take care, lovelies.