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To Alyssa: I apologize for being a douche. I was a wicked tool last night, and I'm sorry you had to put up with my bullshit.
In general: Last night, after my quasi-emotional-breakdown, I went upstairs. And I looked in the mirror. And all of a sudden, I wasn't a kid anymore. I looked at myself, and I saw a young adult. For the first time in my life. And it made me realize I may not be the most attractive, outgoing, funny, nice, talented, popular, or what else have you. But I'm not doing a bad job. I respect who I am. I'm not ashamed of who I am.
I'm not little anymore. My days of blissful ignorance are gone. I have to start thinking. Observing. Rationalizing. Being judgemental, cynical, and opinionated. I'm leaving the kid stuff behind. I'm advancing to what is important: Making myself a better person, and in doing so, changing the world.
I will change the world.
And I'm not going to change the world by being a douche.
I'm going to need help.
Help?
In general: Last night, after my quasi-emotional-breakdown, I went upstairs. And I looked in the mirror. And all of a sudden, I wasn't a kid anymore. I looked at myself, and I saw a young adult. For the first time in my life. And it made me realize I may not be the most attractive, outgoing, funny, nice, talented, popular, or what else have you. But I'm not doing a bad job. I respect who I am. I'm not ashamed of who I am.
I'm not little anymore. My days of blissful ignorance are gone. I have to start thinking. Observing. Rationalizing. Being judgemental, cynical, and opinionated. I'm leaving the kid stuff behind. I'm advancing to what is important: Making myself a better person, and in doing so, changing the world.
I will change the world.
And I'm not going to change the world by being a douche.
I'm going to need help.
Help?