Bad Moon Rising
Today is not going to be a good day. I know its not going to be a good day because of how yesterday ended and today began.
I have not been feeling very well recently. Mostly, I would guess from the weather being unable to make up its mind if its going to be rainy or not. Now that we are on our third bout of dark sky syndrome in about two weeks, I'm starting to feel pretty awful.
I'm pretty good at ignoring the weird pains in weird places. I'm pretty good at riding shotgun on the feeling tired, naps, extra rest, etc. But you keep them building for a few weeks and eventually they get me down.
Last night at the end of our D&D game I misplaced a combatant and when Erik called me on it, I completely lost it. I was so tired I wanted to cry and I'd been fighting on an off for an hour with Gabriel to get him to sleep. He apologized afterwards for baiting me. I had to apologize for losing my temper at his sentence. Usually, I'd just shoot him a look, or be slightly embarrassed and move on. But last night I slammed my hands on the table and went to walk off, yelling something I can't even remember now.
Shit like that always ruins things. Everyone hunches down at the table and doesn't make eye contact with anyone else. The only bright spot was it was literally five minutes before the game was over.
I feel like an idiot.
This morning I got up, knowing I was an idiot, at 8:20. Twenty minutes till I had to go to work. No walk for me. I could not get myself out of bed. I hurt everywhere with weird little pains in my fingers and hands and I'm soooo tired, its like I didn't sleep last night.
This all equals one unhappy day for me.
I have not been feeling very well recently. Mostly, I would guess from the weather being unable to make up its mind if its going to be rainy or not. Now that we are on our third bout of dark sky syndrome in about two weeks, I'm starting to feel pretty awful.
I'm pretty good at ignoring the weird pains in weird places. I'm pretty good at riding shotgun on the feeling tired, naps, extra rest, etc. But you keep them building for a few weeks and eventually they get me down.
Last night at the end of our D&D game I misplaced a combatant and when Erik called me on it, I completely lost it. I was so tired I wanted to cry and I'd been fighting on an off for an hour with Gabriel to get him to sleep. He apologized afterwards for baiting me. I had to apologize for losing my temper at his sentence. Usually, I'd just shoot him a look, or be slightly embarrassed and move on. But last night I slammed my hands on the table and went to walk off, yelling something I can't even remember now.
Shit like that always ruins things. Everyone hunches down at the table and doesn't make eye contact with anyone else. The only bright spot was it was literally five minutes before the game was over.
I feel like an idiot.
This morning I got up, knowing I was an idiot, at 8:20. Twenty minutes till I had to go to work. No walk for me. I could not get myself out of bed. I hurt everywhere with weird little pains in my fingers and hands and I'm soooo tired, its like I didn't sleep last night.
This all equals one unhappy day for me.