i'm stuck
How can two words possibly bring about this much thought in my head?
Ok so listening to Jimi Hendrix at 2am in the muggy heat of a British summer night- a heat brought about by the blanket of cloud that covers the land from horizon to horizon and never ever seems to give me one drop of rain. All it gives me is a perpetual sense of gloom and the feeling of being on the edge of something big.
I've written this entry before but with a lot more negativity attached to it. The problem being this:
A person wants to evolve and change everyday consciously- this is natural. Yet something in their subconscious holds them back. But the subconscious is more natural than the conscious and nature by its nature embraces change. Those who don't change are against life and want to escape it.
So... What's going on?
My answer seems to be pain. The violence of change is equal to the energy and effort it takes to not change. Imagine standing in a river and... a crocodile is swimming towards you. How easy it for you to lift your feet and float on down? Very easy. How hard is it to stand still against the flow even with the imminent doom of a crocodile... randy or otherwise? Very hard. And what is self inflicted pain? It's a release. It's a release from reality.
So my natural side is trying to escape life as WE KNOW IT and why? Because life is not change anymore. It's sitting in front of the TV watching reruns of Friends, eating the same food, meeting the same people, day in day out. So my not changing is a change. This is I have deemed in the last 30 seconds... is a good thing.
The rules need to be bent slightly at times though in certain areas. Some events that come about do actually have a greater worth in change than not changing. Just have to figure out what's what...
In other non-philosophical news in my massive ammounts of free time between now, results day, the crazy weekend that will follow, the recovery and uni I am compiling a CD tracklist of the greatest movie songs of all time. Songs that made the movies they were featured in. The list so far...
Mr. Bluesky- ELO (Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind)
The End- The Doors (Apocalypse Now)
Voodoo Child- Jimi Hendrix (Withnail And I)
Just Like Honey- The Jesus And Mary Chain (Lost In Translation)
Baby I Love Your Way- Peter Frampton (High Fidelity)
Singing In The Rain- Gene Kelly (A Clockwork Orange)
Clubbed To Death- Rob D (The Matrix)
Perfecy Day- Lou Reed (Trainspotting)
Son Of A Preacher Man- Dusty Springfield (Pulp Fiction)
Where Is My Mind?- Pixies (Fight Club)
Bang Bang- Nancy Sinatra (Kill Bill Vol.1)
Golden Brown- The Stranglers (Snatch)
Live And Let Die- Guns 'N' Roses (Grosse Point Blank)
Any suggestions?
Ok so listening to Jimi Hendrix at 2am in the muggy heat of a British summer night- a heat brought about by the blanket of cloud that covers the land from horizon to horizon and never ever seems to give me one drop of rain. All it gives me is a perpetual sense of gloom and the feeling of being on the edge of something big.
I've written this entry before but with a lot more negativity attached to it. The problem being this:
A person wants to evolve and change everyday consciously- this is natural. Yet something in their subconscious holds them back. But the subconscious is more natural than the conscious and nature by its nature embraces change. Those who don't change are against life and want to escape it.
So... What's going on?
My answer seems to be pain. The violence of change is equal to the energy and effort it takes to not change. Imagine standing in a river and... a crocodile is swimming towards you. How easy it for you to lift your feet and float on down? Very easy. How hard is it to stand still against the flow even with the imminent doom of a crocodile... randy or otherwise? Very hard. And what is self inflicted pain? It's a release. It's a release from reality.
So my natural side is trying to escape life as WE KNOW IT and why? Because life is not change anymore. It's sitting in front of the TV watching reruns of Friends, eating the same food, meeting the same people, day in day out. So my not changing is a change. This is I have deemed in the last 30 seconds... is a good thing.
The rules need to be bent slightly at times though in certain areas. Some events that come about do actually have a greater worth in change than not changing. Just have to figure out what's what...
In other non-philosophical news in my massive ammounts of free time between now, results day, the crazy weekend that will follow, the recovery and uni I am compiling a CD tracklist of the greatest movie songs of all time. Songs that made the movies they were featured in. The list so far...
Mr. Bluesky- ELO (Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind)
The End- The Doors (Apocalypse Now)
Voodoo Child- Jimi Hendrix (Withnail And I)
Just Like Honey- The Jesus And Mary Chain (Lost In Translation)
Baby I Love Your Way- Peter Frampton (High Fidelity)
Singing In The Rain- Gene Kelly (A Clockwork Orange)
Clubbed To Death- Rob D (The Matrix)
Perfecy Day- Lou Reed (Trainspotting)
Son Of A Preacher Man- Dusty Springfield (Pulp Fiction)
Where Is My Mind?- Pixies (Fight Club)
Bang Bang- Nancy Sinatra (Kill Bill Vol.1)
Golden Brown- The Stranglers (Snatch)
Live And Let Die- Guns 'N' Roses (Grosse Point Blank)
Any suggestions?