another day
well today wasnt any better than yesterday! o well huh! shit happens! this shut sucks! i called like a dumass and said hey then talked to TONE...yea he hung up on me! =( this is the worse feelin anyone could have! i feel bad for the girls who spend YEARS with a boy and he goes and gets another girl pregnant! Gosh why do i continue to call...i should just stop i called again here at school yet i let him say hello and then i hung up! Lame i know but its like how do u let somthing go?!? how do u just drop this shit, i mean i met him the weirdest thing u could meet anyone! but we had fun. i should just forget about it...like laudi said "it wasnt meant to be". but o well....if it was it will come back only with more baggage! LAME! i just want to meet someone real someone i can trust and love in every way possible. This Usher Cd is perfect...i listened to it all night...i couldnt sleep i kept waking up. i wish he would go to freds and call me from there and just tell me u know. why does shit have to end like this?? why does shit like this begin?!? Mrs. Medrano-Clarke (the lady that told me) was tellin me Robert is pimp...he tries to get girls to give them money! but weird he never asked me for money. O well i am just thinkin the best from him! i wish he would have used the condom i gave him, i would take back everything i ever said about him using it! :-( fuck this really is getting to me and u all are prolly tired of readin the same thing over and over but it just hurts! :-( "its driving me crazy, cause im missin my baby." :-( what the fuck i cried last night a lot just needed to let some of that shit go....it always makes me feel better to cry and just think about what we HAD...o well i wish he would grow balls and just call me and tell me whats up!