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so i think the main lesson I've been learning this summer, or no, maybe it's further back than that, i dunno really maybe it was all of last year. The point is, it's all about freedom. I am realizing my freedom to choose my life. I used to think that my choices limited my field of possibilities and I suppose that is true still to some extent, but i realize now that my choices also open up possibilities for me as well. Choosing music was one of the hardest decisions I've made ebcause it meant that other pursuits in college were now closed to me. However, it was easy to choose this thing I love. My happiness and new-found knowledge are rewards that expand my possibilities.
This year made me examine my past goals as well. I'm always sort of planned to get married out of college and start a family around 30. While I still want to have a family and marry an intelligent, attractive young gerntlemen, my timetable may have to change, especially if I want to perform. It's just a question of how bad I want either of these things. I just know I can't be tied down. I can't be selfish, but I must put my livelihood above all things. I just can't devote all of myself to one man at this point. I have so much that I owe myself and I have so much I owe to everyone around me.
This year made me examine my past goals as well. I'm always sort of planned to get married out of college and start a family around 30. While I still want to have a family and marry an intelligent, attractive young gerntlemen, my timetable may have to change, especially if I want to perform. It's just a question of how bad I want either of these things. I just know I can't be tied down. I can't be selfish, but I must put my livelihood above all things. I just can't devote all of myself to one man at this point. I have so much that I owe myself and I have so much I owe to everyone around me.