1...2..... F! You ( I love trying not to swear while listening to american nightmare...(g.u.t.g)

[rough_afro_puff]

I know you kids are probably sick of this. I am going to say it anyways. I love Bryan. Last night was one of the best nights. We had one of those talks. You know those ones that when you are done talking you never thought you would fall in love any more then you already are then God surprises you and starts making room in your toes for that love. I think God has my body full of love for Bryan. I think he is starting to plant it in other places, cause I can look at things and a feel more love for that boy. I will look outside at the garage and think of the killer squirells in there and BAM! Here comes the Jesus with some more love to store in there. I love it. We drive past the little pizza shop that we walked to the second day I was there. Then BAM! More love for Bryan Brown. It is the best feeling ever. The feeling of missing someone when all they are doing is playing pool 10 minutes from the house. Even though you miss him like he is in China and not coming back for years. The waking up every morning and seeing what you prayed for since you were a little girl and are thankful for right next to you sound asleep with the cutest snore in the whole entire world. He sucks in his bottom lip and makes this cute noise. I love it so freakin much. I love that I can go to his familys house and feel so comfortable with them. Being treated like family and not just another fling that he has. I love waking up every morning knowing that this is the guy I am going to marry. He makes me so happy. I wish all of you had the chance to meet him. Those of you who did I wish you had more time to spend with him. You would be going through your days right now with little memories and thinking to yourself "That Bryan kid is really funny" or just have little memories. I know a few of you do like Rosie, Courtney, Amanda, Erica,Kevin,Kenny, and Lisa. I am sure they all have stories and memories of the kid. I am sorry that I am bragging about how great of a boyfriend I have. I just thought I would actually write in this. LIke how I feel and all. I dont do that often. I know I make small comments about loving him and how great he is. There will never be enough space in this world for me to type the way I feel about him. I think they might even have to make up a few words cause God knows there is anything I can say to really tell you all how I feel about him. Well its getting kinda late and hopefully he will be home soon from playing pool.

I hope you all had a merry christmas

Bryan thank you for making this christmas the best ever! I love you!