I hate myself because I feel like I'm a horrible person and a demanding princess because I hate Japanese culture and I expected too much from my host family. Even though all I expected from my host family was the things my own family do for students when we have them at home. Basically, I expected to become a member of the family, and I'm not. It's not their fault. It's a culture thing. I just dont have a clue what to do to relate to them and have no local friends here and no way I know to make any. I was thinking tonight that I should talk to my host mum, but i dont want to offend her. I live with a cloud of paranoid about offending people over my head. It's not a nice way to live and makes me almost permenantly stressed.
I don't know. If I was to go only by the posts that you have made in your journal, I would probably agree with you that you are being too demanding. But I have learnt that people don't always present reality in their journals. It could be heaps better or heaps worse than you are saying
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I was thinking tonight that I should talk to my host mum, but i dont want to offend her. I live with a cloud of paranoid about offending people over my head. It's not a nice way to live and makes me almost permenantly stressed.
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so. try and have fun ok? you stress too much i tell you over and over.
now... how the bleep do i put you on my friends list?
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