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I woke up this morning feeling terrible, I chugged a bottle of pepto bismol and have been eating crackers and sipping sprite ever since, but I just dont think Im fit to go to terre haute tonight. whats worse is I think a lot of it is anxiety related. I feel shaky and nervous, and I've been trying to get work done and I cant even read my papers. My mind just doesnt want to focus on anything right now.
I feel like I have all this pressure on me all of a sudden, but I dont even know where its coming from. I dont know how much more I can take, though. I want this semester to be over, I want to crawl into bed and sleep for like a hundred years. I'm tired of being sick, Im tired of being depressed, Im tired of being anxious about everything. I think I'm going to go drug myself to sleep and hope things are better when I wake up.
First I'm going to call some doctors... I really need to do something about this. It's going to effect my grades, Im afraid. Urgh, why cant I just be normal??? Why cant I deal with stress the way everyone else does? How do other ppl function without having panic attacks and lying in bed, too afraid to leave their houses for weeks at a time?? Seriously, how do you all do it?
I havent written anything since December... thats half my problem. Writing is the only thing that makes me feel better, and now its gone.
I feel like I have all this pressure on me all of a sudden, but I dont even know where its coming from. I dont know how much more I can take, though. I want this semester to be over, I want to crawl into bed and sleep for like a hundred years. I'm tired of being sick, Im tired of being depressed, Im tired of being anxious about everything. I think I'm going to go drug myself to sleep and hope things are better when I wake up.
First I'm going to call some doctors... I really need to do something about this. It's going to effect my grades, Im afraid. Urgh, why cant I just be normal??? Why cant I deal with stress the way everyone else does? How do other ppl function without having panic attacks and lying in bed, too afraid to leave their houses for weeks at a time?? Seriously, how do you all do it?
I havent written anything since December... thats half my problem. Writing is the only thing that makes me feel better, and now its gone.