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He is the most important thing in my life.I care for him so much. I wanna be with him forever.I have never felt this way about anyone ever..Sure when i had boyfriends i always thought i was in love..But i guess that wasnt always true.With him its different..I dont know i just cant stop thinking about him ever, and how i always want him with me,how special he makes me feel..(sometimes) He has to think of something that shouldnt even be thought about cuz i did nothing! he doesnt understand that i dont want to be friends with them because i just dont like them..All they do is drive around drinking and smoking all day because none of them ever decide to go to work,and i know my baby is better then this shit yet he doesnt even know it. He's so much smarter then he lets on..and all i want is to stop this fighting shit.I just wish at times..he wouldnt blow me off for his friends. and then all the times he blows me off he wonders why i get angry when he speaks there names..BECAUSE THEY TAKE YOU FOR HOURS ON END..Makes me feel unimportant..There always first,I dont give a shit if you chill with them,But i dont want all of this un needed effort to try to be with someone if im just doing this all on my own.I dont need to keep coming over your house because " your tired" or "your drunk" from hanging out with these assholes all day,I dont understand how there is just hardly ne time left over for me.Oh man when we first started hanging out i was the only one he use to hang out with all the time,Now its just bullshit.
I care so much but yet he thinks there is something else underlining it all. and it makes me sick to where it hurts to even think or look at him. He needs to decide on who is more important..not asking him to choose sides, but for him to know who is more important. Stop blowing me off, your a big boy. You seem like its better for me to hear that your going to blow me off then to tell your friends that you already made plans with me. You dont seem to see any of this!
and thats a big fuck you.
Call me when you grow up.
I care so much but yet he thinks there is something else underlining it all. and it makes me sick to where it hurts to even think or look at him. He needs to decide on who is more important..not asking him to choose sides, but for him to know who is more important. Stop blowing me off, your a big boy. You seem like its better for me to hear that your going to blow me off then to tell your friends that you already made plans with me. You dont seem to see any of this!
and thats a big fuck you.
Call me when you grow up.