Strength & Grace
I have so many things I want to write about, so many things to share but I don't know how.
Two worst feelings this week: 1. This, the inability to put my thoughts in words and 2. Feeling like I'm misunderstood.
Nothing bad has happened. No quarrels, no politics, nothing. My friends still love me and vice versa, and nobody has crossed the wrong line yet.
What makes me feel the most uneasy is when a friend, or somebody that I particularly like, doesn't seem to know me as I am. Or rather, he thinks I'm a simple A, but I'm actually B, C and maybe even D or Z.
It might be a guy thing to think that all girls that whine are damsels in distress waiting for somebody to hear them out and give them advices, but No, when girls whine to a guy, there's nothing more to it - it's just their incessant need to be heard. It's a girl thing. Okay, maybe it's not a girl thing, it's an Amanda thing.
Like seriously, I don't feel the need to explain or to correct every single thing that people think of me because I feel that time would tell. Time would tell people how I really am like if they bother to invest time on knowing me.
But UGHHHHHHHHH it's making me feel so uneasy when people hang up the phone with me with the impression that I am in dire need of help, motivation and yada yada. Like, seriously?! I am NEVER known for that kind of bullshit. if anything, people come to ME.
So all I do is tilt my head in wonder. I am such an easy person to read but some just don't get it.
And know what kills me the most? People who don't get my sense of humour. I guess it's easy for people who aren't friends with me to not get it, but it bothers me a lot when some (okay, just one) of my friends don't get my sense of humour. There is no such thing as a "humble joke", a joke is a joke. It doesn't have to be morally right, or socially accepted. I have never heard of a socially acceptable joke, because if it was, then it's most probably not funny. My sense of humour might be cynical, sometimes dark, sometimes blasphemous, sometimes too blunt, but isn't that the whole point of it?
I.. I died when I was told "You can't say such things." or "How can you say such things?" How about you get yourself some sense of humour and have a laugh at life the way it is? Geez.
So yes, that will be about it. Goodnight.
Two worst feelings this week: 1. This, the inability to put my thoughts in words and 2. Feeling like I'm misunderstood.
Nothing bad has happened. No quarrels, no politics, nothing. My friends still love me and vice versa, and nobody has crossed the wrong line yet.
What makes me feel the most uneasy is when a friend, or somebody that I particularly like, doesn't seem to know me as I am. Or rather, he thinks I'm a simple A, but I'm actually B, C and maybe even D or Z.
It might be a guy thing to think that all girls that whine are damsels in distress waiting for somebody to hear them out and give them advices, but No, when girls whine to a guy, there's nothing more to it - it's just their incessant need to be heard. It's a girl thing. Okay, maybe it's not a girl thing, it's an Amanda thing.
Like seriously, I don't feel the need to explain or to correct every single thing that people think of me because I feel that time would tell. Time would tell people how I really am like if they bother to invest time on knowing me.
But UGHHHHHHHHH it's making me feel so uneasy when people hang up the phone with me with the impression that I am in dire need of help, motivation and yada yada. Like, seriously?! I am NEVER known for that kind of bullshit. if anything, people come to ME.
So all I do is tilt my head in wonder. I am such an easy person to read but some just don't get it.
And know what kills me the most? People who don't get my sense of humour. I guess it's easy for people who aren't friends with me to not get it, but it bothers me a lot when some (okay, just one) of my friends don't get my sense of humour. There is no such thing as a "humble joke", a joke is a joke. It doesn't have to be morally right, or socially accepted. I have never heard of a socially acceptable joke, because if it was, then it's most probably not funny. My sense of humour might be cynical, sometimes dark, sometimes blasphemous, sometimes too blunt, but isn't that the whole point of it?
I.. I died when I was told "You can't say such things." or "How can you say such things?" How about you get yourself some sense of humour and have a laugh at life the way it is? Geez.
So yes, that will be about it. Goodnight.