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ehhh! its so creepy to be laying in bed, trying to sleep and you hear the people above you having sex. sick!
so my drug/alcohol class has made me realize the effects on me and my personality due to having alcoholic parents. my anger problems, being so introverted, getting too attached in relationships/not being able to hold a healthy one(cause ive never seen one, im trying to fgure out what one is). it all makes sense now. fuck my parents! lol! kidding kidding. i cant change what has happened, i cant be angry at them, its all they knew and was taught by their parents, they didnt know any better. i just have to deal with it and move on and forgive them, in a sense. we were talking about all the roles a child plays while having alcoholic parents and i fit in all of them! it was just so weird. this class scares the piss out of me. i think thats a good thing though. it makes me want to be a better person.
and i realized i say/said a lot of horrible things out of anger. i dont want to say sorry for them, cause theyre true, but theyre the kind of things you only think but dont actually say to someone cause theyre really mean! lol!
anyyyywayyyssss... its almost October!!! which means haunted houses (Emily Rose screams!!! lmao!!), cider mills, pumpkin patches, pretty colored leaves!, scary movies, FRIDAY THE 13th!, moving out of my damn apartment, costume parties, and HALLOWEEN!!!! may favoritest season everrrrrrr!
p.s. 1 month and 8 days till my b-day!!!!!!!!!
so my drug/alcohol class has made me realize the effects on me and my personality due to having alcoholic parents. my anger problems, being so introverted, getting too attached in relationships/not being able to hold a healthy one(cause ive never seen one, im trying to fgure out what one is). it all makes sense now. fuck my parents! lol! kidding kidding. i cant change what has happened, i cant be angry at them, its all they knew and was taught by their parents, they didnt know any better. i just have to deal with it and move on and forgive them, in a sense. we were talking about all the roles a child plays while having alcoholic parents and i fit in all of them! it was just so weird. this class scares the piss out of me. i think thats a good thing though. it makes me want to be a better person.
and i realized i say/said a lot of horrible things out of anger. i dont want to say sorry for them, cause theyre true, but theyre the kind of things you only think but dont actually say to someone cause theyre really mean! lol!
anyyyywayyyssss... its almost October!!! which means haunted houses (Emily Rose screams!!! lmao!!), cider mills, pumpkin patches, pretty colored leaves!, scary movies, FRIDAY THE 13th!, moving out of my damn apartment, costume parties, and HALLOWEEN!!!! may favoritest season everrrrrrr!
p.s. 1 month and 8 days till my b-day!!!!!!!!!