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Today has not been as good as I hoped. I feel really depressed for some reason, which I am not used to. Jordan is not feeling well, and I wish there was something I could do to help. I wish I would have made better decisions earlier in my life so that I didnt have to be the type of person I have turned out to be. Even though I am happy with my life right now and I am excited to have a baby, I wish I could go back and undo some of the decisions I made when I was young and stupid. I need to get my life in order and quit all the bullshit I have been doing. From here on out I am gonna be different, I know most of you doubt me, but that makes me want to do it even more. I WILL be a good father, I WILL be a good boyfriend and husband, I WILL provide for my family. If you doubt me fuck you.