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I am writing a book loosly based on my life. I say loosly because not everything in this book has happened to me. This is a letter written by the main character Laney, to a guy that she once had a ambiguous relationship with.
Dear......
Do you ever wish that you could just turn back the hands of time? Of course you have, because I am sure that everyone has regrets they would like to live over again. If I had the power to make a change in history, I would go back about two months ago...to the day we just met. It would be a Saturday night, and you would come in that front door sporting the most amazing dimples and smelling of the delicious Hugo boss. I would hang up your blue vest, and try desperately not to stare at this beautiful guy coming to my house for dinner.
From that day forward I would wrestle with the feelings that I had deep inside of me. I would struggle with what I wanted to do, and what was right to do. I would convince myself that certain things were meaningless when in reality they meant a great deal. Remember that hug we had in the kitchen, with me up on the counter and you standing on the floor. When you held me like that, I can honestly say that I never felt more alive. When we cuddled together with candles and listened to Thom Knowles music...I never felt more cared for and more safe. You are right about your kisses, they are leathel. I could have kept kissing you for hours and days straight.
Here I thought that you were not ready for me, when in many ways I was not ready for you. You made me realize that parts of my cerebrum were way too crowded with thoughts of boys, and shallow insignificant things. I needed to mature in that area where males were concerned, and stop letting all the drama consume me.
It is obvious to me now that I was trying to fill a void that only God wants to fill. Now it is my hearts desire to put God first and put the boys in dead last.
Thank you for helping me realize these sad truths about myself. I love you, and I am so thankful to have you in my life.
Friends Always
Laney
Dear......
Do you ever wish that you could just turn back the hands of time? Of course you have, because I am sure that everyone has regrets they would like to live over again. If I had the power to make a change in history, I would go back about two months ago...to the day we just met. It would be a Saturday night, and you would come in that front door sporting the most amazing dimples and smelling of the delicious Hugo boss. I would hang up your blue vest, and try desperately not to stare at this beautiful guy coming to my house for dinner.
From that day forward I would wrestle with the feelings that I had deep inside of me. I would struggle with what I wanted to do, and what was right to do. I would convince myself that certain things were meaningless when in reality they meant a great deal. Remember that hug we had in the kitchen, with me up on the counter and you standing on the floor. When you held me like that, I can honestly say that I never felt more alive. When we cuddled together with candles and listened to Thom Knowles music...I never felt more cared for and more safe. You are right about your kisses, they are leathel. I could have kept kissing you for hours and days straight.
Here I thought that you were not ready for me, when in many ways I was not ready for you. You made me realize that parts of my cerebrum were way too crowded with thoughts of boys, and shallow insignificant things. I needed to mature in that area where males were concerned, and stop letting all the drama consume me.
It is obvious to me now that I was trying to fill a void that only God wants to fill. Now it is my hearts desire to put God first and put the boys in dead last.
Thank you for helping me realize these sad truths about myself. I love you, and I am so thankful to have you in my life.
Friends Always
Laney