Oh cool...I didn't see this. I had added those other entries to my memories so that I could see if you'd reply. Then I decided to check back on your recent updates.
That photo was taken at the robot competition in April of 2003, i beleive. I'm pretty sure, that's around when we started dating. It's at the reliant Stadium. It's creepy to look at that picture. i remember I was holding a soda and talking about how much i love soda, and he was acting jealous, and I looked at him, then back at the soda... "Hm..." hehehe.
It's probably best that you didn't bother with him..maybe. See, he was a really great friend I regret making it into something else..somewhat. When we started dating further into the relationship he became really insecure over his past relationships and I didn't know WHAT to do because he was my first b/f. He accused me of a lot of things I didn't do, and couldn't trust me because of what other people had done. I felt bad, because of all my friends at the time i should have been the one with the trusting b/f. But he made up problems and didn't trust me, and my friends went on to be ignorantly happy.
It was al together a big mess, but I think someone else might have handled it better and maybe you'd be the type to confront problems. but maybe not. I was just scared to tell him anything.
Do you still talk to him? I talk to his g/f sometimes online and she seems nice and that worries me :P My brother (Conor Farrell, he said he knows of you) spoke to him recently because they both live at the dowms in UH, and he seems well, possibly better. i'm surprised he even held a conversation with my brother. *shrug*
I think your entries are very interesting because your pictures make you seem so much different from your words. I think I had one idea of the type of person you were when john introduced me to you (not bad, just natural thoughts on people) and then I read your entries and you seemed different...they'd I'd see your photots and it was another way. haha. i don't know. One example being you seemed really outgoing when i met you, and then your entries seem sort of dark or lazy despite how often you seem to get out and have fun, then your pics make you seem like you hold a lot in but then other pics make you seem outspoken and outgoing again....*dazed* haha I guess I'd never really know unless I knew you in person.
So ending up here is a long story that might also sound cryptic...but I had this friend's website I was trying to remember, and so i looked up his name and peices of the website I'd remember and I found all these crazy sites about him and his family that made me so freaked out, or old message boards he was a part of and stuff (I knew it was im for sure) then i looked up another friend and found even more crazy insane things, including doctors notes and medical history...so I kept playing around with people's names who weren't evry popular to see just how messed up it was, and i looked up Joh's full name because it's uncommon, and it showed this because you have his name in your intrests.
And then I was like "Oh I remember her, she was with john the day we broke up" so I went back to the date it happened and when i met you to see if you had said anything about it or what happened, because he didn't exactly explain himself and did it online...It was sort of mized up and I wanted to see if you had an idea and updated on her about it, as some people have that I've seen before. then I kept going and saw the photo. And yada yada, thought it was interesting, i nreading your entries after seeing that I kept reading all night.
There were other things I wanted to say that I thought was cool but I forget now. One being I think an intrest you had in...shoot I always forget the director. but he did Life Aquatic, i think that was your journal I saw the pictures on. *shrug*
yeah soda. six minutes of pleasure someone described it like that to me once.
we dont talk much anymore. i sent him an invitation to a blog thingy by accident and then started talking to me again but then i must have said something to make him not talk to me. he didnt talk to me the whole summer because he thought i was mad at him. and i thought the same of him. so no.
i met his girlfriend once at project graduation 05. but i didnt get an impression of her at all. i dont even remember what her face looks like.
i never like the lj though. because it never represented me as a person. which can be a little ... i dont know the word. i hate first impressions because they never represent the person in their true form. and i am the worst at first impressions. i am never how i seem. outgoing... far from it. i am the worst kind of person.
One time, while we were dating, John didn't tal kto me for 2 weeks. I beleive it was because he got his hair cut. After that, he became kind of an asshole. I had to go by his house to talk to him again. How can someone be so cold as to just ignore you for 2 weeks while dating? He's really good at avoiding people and pretending he doesn't.
Impressions are usually wrong, but usually stuck in our head. It's okay, I don't judge people because people severly get the wrong impression of me, and so i ignore my impressions of others if need be.
i am sure that there is more to the story than that but i guess i wont even bother to ask. i guess i havent put myself out there to talk to him because its not a big deal or whatever. i have other things to do.
i honestly can say that i really dont remember you but i do remember your face and thinking that you looked like conor.
and what do you know you are related to him so ... i never even knew that.
i remember him ... he was in my visual media class. a funny one he was.
you seem nice enough because i dont think john ever put you down. nothing but good words.
Well if it's true that I had the wrong impression of you for starters, than it's probbly best nothing ever happened with John. He real lwas an odd character and his behavior could only be described as insecure. I keep hearing all these things from other people, all the nice stuff he's said about me, but he never acted happy towards me, really.
One day you two were walking around and he decided to come see me where I sat at lunch, and caught me with a friend he didn't know i became friends with. I didn't tell him we were friends again, but I didn't tell anyone because I had said so many bad things about her and felt stupid. But he felt lied to, and I followed behind ya'll while he went to take pics of the football team, and you walked away and when I tried to confront him he said "Where'd Rosy go? She shouldn't have left without her pass..." and ignored what i had to say that way. But he broke up with me online after school...blech. I started tlaking to him again about a year ago this time around, and he's become very immature and he's not as nice as he was...he's hung around with the wrong people. I think, personally. He was more laid back when I knew him, I guess..
But enough of that!
The saying i look related to Conor is such a cool comment! Is that really true? before you even know? i mean maybe you knew you just didn't know. So many people say i look like him but I don't see it, and I think they only say it after they meet us. But that's interesting that you thought it and didn't even know.
Speaking of visual media and Conor, he and I are hoping to get serious about videos soon and are looking into websites and video ideas. I was just watching our old stuff, it's so ridiculous. Do you have AIM? I saw on your info you had everyone but aim, seemingly
i dont know him that well though. but wow that sounds pretty harsh.
i dont remember the last time we hung out but it seemed like he didnt was too interested so i just dropped trying to hang with him.
nah i dont have aim. i dont have the internet at my house. even then i wouldnt get on it because there is just something about sitting at home talking to people online just doesnt seem to apprealing when i have other choices.
you two used to do films together. i think i always enjoyed the stuff he did in class but i cant really remember any of it.
I was going to send you a video I did on Conor recently. We love doing that crap still.
They don't have a visual media class here anymore at all :[ you guys took it with your class. Well, actually Conor did..or..were you a senior with him? I think so. *shrug* Ya'll were the last class to have it, no one signs up anymore.
I do go to creek, for one more semester.
We'll both be going to University of Houston, and then hopefully UT last 2 years. Not sure. But he's dorming there now.
That photo was taken at the robot competition in April of 2003, i beleive. I'm pretty sure, that's around when we started dating. It's at the reliant Stadium. It's creepy to look at that picture. i remember I was holding a soda and talking about how much i love soda, and he was acting jealous, and I looked at him, then back at the soda... "Hm..." hehehe.
It's probably best that you didn't bother with him..maybe. See, he was a really great friend I regret making it into something else..somewhat. When we started dating further into the relationship he became really insecure over his past relationships and I didn't know WHAT to do because he was my first b/f. He accused me of a lot of things I didn't do, and couldn't trust me because of what other people had done. I felt bad, because of all my friends at the time i should have been the one with the trusting b/f. But he made up problems and didn't trust me, and my friends went on to be ignorantly happy.
It was al together a big mess, but I think someone else might have handled it better and maybe you'd be the type to confront problems. but maybe not. I was just scared to tell him anything.
Do you still talk to him? I talk to his g/f sometimes online and she seems nice and that worries me :P My brother (Conor Farrell, he said he knows of you) spoke to him recently because they both live at the dowms in UH, and he seems well, possibly better. i'm surprised he even held a conversation with my brother. *shrug*
I think your entries are very interesting because your pictures make you seem so much different from your words. I think I had one idea of the type of person you were when john introduced me to you (not bad, just natural thoughts on people) and then I read your entries and you seemed different...they'd I'd see your photots and it was another way. haha. i don't know. One example being you seemed really outgoing when i met you, and then your entries seem sort of dark or lazy despite how often you seem to get out and have fun, then your pics make you seem like you hold a lot in but then other pics make you seem outspoken and outgoing again....*dazed* haha I guess I'd never really know unless I knew you in person.
So ending up here is a long story that might also sound cryptic...but I had this friend's website I was trying to remember, and so i looked up his name and peices of the website I'd remember and I found all these crazy sites about him and his family that made me so freaked out, or old message boards he was a part of and stuff (I knew it was im for sure) then i looked up another friend and found even more crazy insane things, including doctors notes and medical history...so I kept playing around with people's names who weren't evry popular to see just how messed up it was, and i looked up Joh's full name because it's uncommon, and it showed this because you have his name in your intrests.
And then I was like "Oh I remember her, she was with john the day we broke up" so I went back to the date it happened and when i met you to see if you had said anything about it or what happened, because he didn't exactly explain himself and did it online...It was sort of mized up and I wanted to see if you had an idea and updated on her about it, as some people have that I've seen before. then I kept going and saw the photo. And yada yada, thought it was interesting, i nreading your entries after seeing that I kept reading all night.
There were other things I wanted to say that I thought was cool but I forget now. One being I think an intrest you had in...shoot I always forget the director. but he did Life Aquatic, i think that was your journal I saw the pictures on. *shrug*
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six minutes of pleasure someone described it like that to me once.
we dont talk much anymore. i sent him an invitation to a blog thingy by accident and then started talking to me again but then i must have said something to make him not talk to me. he didnt talk to me the whole summer because he thought i was mad at him. and i thought the same of him. so no.
i met his girlfriend once at project graduation 05. but i didnt get an impression of her at all. i dont even remember what her face looks like.
i never like the lj though. because it never represented me as a person. which can be a little ... i dont know the word. i hate first impressions because they never represent the person in their true form. and i am the worst at first impressions. i am never how i seem. outgoing... far from it. i am the worst kind of person.
wes anderson. ever see bottle rocket?
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Yes, Bottle Rocket is my favorite. <3
My brother and I want to make movies and be just like the Wilson bros.
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Impressions are usually wrong, but usually stuck in our head. It's okay, I don't judge people because people severly get the wrong impression of me, and so i ignore my impressions of others if need be.
So no worries.
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i am sure that there is more to the story than that but i guess i wont even bother to ask. i guess i havent put myself out there to talk to him because its not a big deal or whatever. i have other things to do.
i honestly can say that i really dont remember you but i do remember your face and thinking that you looked like conor.
and what do you know you are related to him so ... i never even knew that.
i remember him ... he was in my visual media class. a funny one he was.
you seem nice enough because i dont think john ever put you down. nothing but good words.
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One day you two were walking around and he decided to come see me where I sat at lunch, and caught me with a friend he didn't know i became friends with. I didn't tell him we were friends again, but I didn't tell anyone because I had said so many bad things about her and felt stupid. But he felt lied to, and I followed behind ya'll while he went to take pics of the football team, and you walked away and when I tried to confront him he said "Where'd Rosy go? She shouldn't have left without her pass..." and ignored what i had to say that way. But he broke up with me online after school...blech. I started tlaking to him again about a year ago this time around, and he's become very immature and he's not as nice as he was...he's hung around with the wrong people. I think, personally. He was more laid back when I knew him, I guess..
But enough of that!
The saying i look related to Conor is such a cool comment! Is that really true? before you even know? i mean maybe you knew you just didn't know. So many people say i look like him but I don't see it, and I think they only say it after they meet us. But that's interesting that you thought it and didn't even know.
Speaking of visual media and Conor, he and I are hoping to get serious about videos soon and are looking into websites and video ideas. I was just watching our old stuff, it's so ridiculous. Do you have AIM? I saw on your info you had everyone but aim, seemingly
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i dont remember the last time we hung out but it seemed like he didnt was too interested so i just dropped trying to hang with him.
nah i dont have aim. i dont have the internet at my house. even then i wouldnt get on it because there is just something about sitting at home talking to people online just doesnt seem to apprealing when i have other choices.
you two used to do films together. i think i always enjoyed the stuff he did in class but i cant really remember any of it.
how serious is serious?
do they still offer visual media at creek?
do you even still go to creek?
where does your brother go?
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They don't have a visual media class here anymore at all :[ you guys took it with your class. Well, actually Conor did..or..were you a senior with him? I think so. *shrug* Ya'll were the last class to have it, no one signs up anymore.
I do go to creek, for one more semester.
We'll both be going to University of Houston, and then hopefully UT last 2 years. Not sure. But he's dorming there now.
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that sucks thought because i think there were some kids that had potential in the class of 2006.
i remember the thing that rex hudson did of that calvin klein parody commercial. loved it.
yeah send me a video. i will watch. probably give you feed back.
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