Sunday Scribblings Make-up Post-Prompt "Courage"

May 13, 2010 21:37

Courage

I think that it takes courage to stand up and declare who you are. I am not ashamed that I am a woman who favors loud men's button-down shirts, t-shirts, jeans, henleys, and jean jackets. Nor do I feel compelled to be embarrassed about not wearing make-up or perfume or dyeing my hair. I think that make-up and hair dye are just artifice and chemicals to hide from ourselves, more than anything else. Converse Chuck Taylor tennis shoes remain my shoes of choice because they're comfortable, I like walking in them, and there's no uncomfortable breaking in period.

I am a woman who doesn't like jewelry or flowers. I have a couple of pieces of jewelry that I wear all the time, but as for the rest of it, it just doesn't trip my trigger. I like flowers better when they're alive and growing, where they serve their purpose in nature in addition to being beautiful. I still love the smell of lilacs or apple blossoms in the spring and prairie primroses in the summer. My two most favorite scents are sweetgrass meadows, especially when they've been warmed by the summer sun, and the way fresh-plowed fields smell after the rain.

I don't fit molds, because it seems to me that rebelling in the obvious ways is somehow just as traitorous as conforming. I don't think that there is anything wrong with loving Looney Tunes, Tom and Jerry, and other classic short cartoons as well as liking Disney movies. It shouldn't matter if the movie was meant to be a kids' movie, if it's good, that's all that should be important. I also don't think that liking comedies, action movies, good and bad sci-fi and horror, and classic TV should be mutually exclusive, they can all be in the same person's movie collection. It doesn't hurt anyone to watch the occasional stupid kung-fu movie or romantic comedy. It's okay not to like certain music or artists, but that doesn't mean that classical, heavy metal, classic rock, country, folk, alternative, and independent music can't all coexist peacefully in the same collection. I also don't see the issue with Jimmy Buffet being my magic pick-me-up music, either. (Yes, Jimmy ALWAYS makes it better, don't ask me how or why, I don't ask questions, I just believe in the magic).

I am a woman who would cheerfully watch five actors read the phone book. Those actors are: Jeffrey Dean Morgan, Jordan Woolley, Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, and Mark C Collier. There are four people (three actors and an author) whom I would also listen to reading the phone book, they are: Sam Elliott, Tom Selleck, Michael Wincott, and Neil Gaiman.

I freely admit that I'll read almost anything that I think is interesting. I really enjoy fantasy, folklore, myths and legeneds and some sci-fi, but I also read comic books and graphic novels, history and non-fiction books, young adult and children's literature, and just about anything else that I find interesting. As a writer, I never know what will inspire me, and I find beauty in some of the oddest places. I love language and words and so I immerse myself in both the good and the bad so that I can develop myself as both a writer and a reader.

Writing has led me to creating some stories and characters that make me uncomfortable. I believe that it takes courage to keep writing them anyway, following the story until I see how it ends. I find, occasionally, that I have written things that scare me, because I'm surprised that the knowledge and pop culture that I've absorbed over the years has somehow percolated into the words currently adorning the page. I think everyone has some dark corners and turns in their mind and I think that if we're brave enough to face them and admit that we're uncomfortable about them, then maybe that makes us better equipped to be better human beings.

I am a woman who collects dragons , rocks, and cartoon memorabilia. I am a woman who makes things. I can crochet, bind books, viking wire knit, scrapbook, draw, paint, and sew. I am also a woman who cannot actually wrap a present neatly to save her life. Somehow, when I start trying to wrap things it just all goes slightly south and pretty soon I've just made a mess. I'm happy when the paper is all secured with tape and none of the present is showing. I love giving gifts. I hate attempting to wrap them.

I like playing pool and bowling, even though I'm not very good at either of them. I still have a lot of fun. I also like playing catch and frisbee. I'm lousy at video games. I like blowing bubbles and playing with silly putty (silly putty can cure writers' block, really, I promise). I also like playing word games and board games. I like taking walks and exploring.

I enjoy nature. One of my favorite things to do is watch lightning from my parents' front porch, eating a bowl of popcorn. I have seen eagles, hawks, owls, deer, muskrats, and other assorted wildlife at fairly close range. I love animals, especially big dogs, and I will never understand cruelty towards animals or people. Insects, crustaceans, spiders, reptiles and amphibians don't bother me a bit, but I do kind of like to see snakes before they see me. I like sitting outside on a nice day and reading in a comfortable chair with a nice glass of good iced tea.

I'm a walking encyclopedia of weird. I love science and history just as much as I love art, music, the written word, movies, and animation. The ocean fascinates me, so does most of the rest of the world. Shark week is one of my favorite times of the year. Free Comic Book Day is my favorite day of the year.

I am a woman who enjoys riding motorcycles and seeing and riding in classic cars. I like to drive, but I like riding better. It lets me pay more attention to the landscape. Also, there's no danger when I get lost in the music of the engine. I still love riding my moped, and my old, beat-up car.

I like to drink tea. I appreciate good cheese. I also enjoy Cherry RC. I love trying new food and new things. It follows that I really love to travel, whether it's a long or short trip or whether it's planned or spontaneous. I like making playlists for road trips.

I believe in artists and their art. I believe in freedom of self-expression, providing you don't hurt yourself or anyone else. I firmly believe that stories need told and shared. I also believe in the power of art of all types and levels to heal and help make the world better.

I might take a while to warm up to someone. It's not because I don't like people, it's just usually that I'm trying to find where the boundaries are. I like to respect other peoples' boundaries, because I know how it feels to have others not respect mine. I believe in True Love, kind words, tolerance and good deeds. I believe that it's perfectly all right to be a good girl in a kind of scary, screwed up world, despite a multitude of horribly rotten examples.

I know it takes courage to admit that someone you love has an addiction. It takes more courage to reach an understanding that they won't let you help, no matter how much you wish you could. Then, it takes even more to make the decision to keep yourself healthy, sane, and stable if you can't help and follow through once you do.

I think that it takes courage to be yourself, without making apologies or excuses. So what if I love the songs “Knock Three Times” and “40,000 Pounds of Bananas?” It doesn't make me any less of a woman or any less of a human being. Some people will never appreciate the courage it takes to stand up and say “I am me, and there's nothing wrong with that.”

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